2024 0606 今日塔羅：皇后 Empress
2024 0606 今日塔羅：皇后 Empress
前一天晚上，我與整個世界斷了連結。
看著塔羅牌，腦袋空空的。
翻轉塔羅牌，思緒空空的。
這是長期內耗造成的困境。
這次內耗的形成原因不在他人，在自己。
總是貪心地想要了解更多事情。
總是貪婪地想要知道更多知識。
尤其是身心靈這塊領域。
無論是古老的東方還是遙遠的西方。
無論是過去還是現在。
只要清醒著的時間，聽課、上課，幾乎佔了絕大部分的時間。
能吸收嗎？
有消化嗎？
時間不夠吸收，不夠消化。
但學習的機會都是唯一。
也許等有比較多時間可以進行時，課程已不再招開。
我們永遠不會知道未來是什麼情況等著我們。
所以，我珍惜當下的做法就是，若有需要學習的課程，只要時間允許，就排進時間表裡。
原來，我看似無所事事的休息期，被自己的恐慌和貪心給佔據了。
雖然我已跳離職場，卻又忍不住擔憂若不跟進相關議題和資訊，與職場的脫節，是否會造成封閉的自己。
這證明了我是平凡人啊。
自以為能夠淡定，可能是壓抑。
自以為能夠疏離，可能是逃避。
建立自己安全的情感狀態，迫在眉睫，得注意與面對。
想念溫暖的土壤。
想念清新的草地。
想念艷麗的花朵。
想念和煦的微風。
想念涓涓的小溪。
想念無際的天空。
想念我四處逍遙的自然風景。
今日的塔羅是皇后。
皇后，更深層的含意是大地。
大地，更直接的連結是母親。
你心中的母親是什麼模樣？
我的姪子姪女分別落在兩個世代，一個世代現在剛大學畢業，另一個世代是落在青少年，他們彼此之間剛好相差十歲。
在年長姪子姪女世代，他們認為他們的母親是世上最棒的。
帶著他們一起玩，一起瘋狂。
帶著他們一起打遊戲，探索世界，學習成長。
進得了廚房，上得了廳堂。
進得了遊戲間，上得了學習殿堂。
較年輕世代的姪子姪女，對於媽媽，是溫柔、美麗、優雅的形像。
輕聲細語的溝通、交流與叮嚀。
跟他們一起研讀聖經，一起面對生命中的所有艱難。
他們知道，父母雖然是成人，是所謂的大人，也是會恐懼、害怕，想躲避，不想面對。
對我來說，我母親的形像，是堅忍的屹立不搖，是超猛的行動力，個子雖嬌小卻有著無比強大的力量。
母親的聲音，是爽朗的笑聲，是快速用力的切菜聲，是噗哧噗哧鍋上熱湯滾動的聲音。
皇后 ~
是滋養與孕育。
是溫暖與安全。
是掌控與占有。
是守護與維繫。
是付出與傳承。
是依附與束縛。
Tarot of the Day for 2024/06/06: The Empress
The night before, I disconnected from the entire world. Looking at the Tarot cards, my mind went blank. Flipping the Tarot cards, my thoughts were empty. This is the dilemma caused by prolonged internal exhaustion. The cause of this internal struggle lies not with others but within myself.
I always greedily want to understand more things. I always greedily want to know more knowledge. Especially in the realm of body, mind, and spirit. Whether it is the ancient East or the distant West. Whether it is the past or the present.
As long as I'm awake, most of my time is spent listening to classes and attending lectures. Can I absorb it? Can I digest it? There isn't enough time to absorb or digest it. But the opportunities to learn are unique. Maybe by the time I have more time to engage, the courses will no longer be available. We never know what the future holds for us.
Therefore, my way of cherishing the present is that if there is a course I need to learn, as long as time permits, I schedule it.
It turns out that my seemingly idle rest period was occupied by my own panic and greed. Although I have left the workplace, I can't help but worry whether not keeping up with relevant issues and information will lead to a disconnect that will close me off.
This proves that I am an ordinary person. Thinking I can remain calm might just be repression. Thinking I can be detached might just be escapism.
Establishing a safe emotional state for myself is urgent and must be addressed.
I miss the warm soil. I miss the fresh grass. I miss the vibrant flowers. I miss the gentle breeze. I miss the trickling stream. I miss the boundless sky. I miss the natural scenery where I roamed freely.
Today's Tarot is the Empress. The deeper meaning of the Empress is the Earth. The more direct connection to the Earth is the Mother.
What does the mother in your heart look like? My nieces and nephews are from two generations: one has just graduated from college, and the other is in their teenage years, with a ten-year gap between them. The older generation of nieces and nephews believes their mother is the best in the world. She plays with them and goes crazy with them. She plays games with them, explores the world, and learns and grows together. She can handle the kitchen and manage the living room. She can navigate the game room and the hall of learning.
The younger generation of nieces and nephews sees their mother as gentle, beautiful, and elegant. She communicates, interacts, and gently reminds them. She studies the Bible with them and faces all the challenges in life together. They know that although their parents are adults, they also experience fear, want to hide, and sometimes don't want to face things.
To me, the image of my mother is one of unwavering resilience, incredible action, and immense strength despite her small stature. Her voice is the sound of hearty laughter, the swift and forceful sound of chopping vegetables, and the bubbling of hot soup on the stove.
The Empress ~
Is nourishment and nurturing.
Is warmth and safety.
Is control and possession.
Is protection and maintenance.
Is giving and inheritance.
Is attachment and restriction.
