2024 0618 今日塔羅：負面性 Nagativity
昨日有小小的不開心。
上課教室空調因過去空間配置與現在的方式不一樣，導致左右兩邊像是冰山和赤道。
左邊舒適宜人時，右邊得穿上戴帽外套，冷風還會從袖口、褲管口灌進，冷吱吱的。
若是右邊溫度感受舒服，那左邊就會像被掐喉般，悶得透不過氣來。
因此，右邊同學去調整了空調設定，左邊同學不開心，自己又不想說這事，用一個很可笑的理由要我去跟右邊同學溝通。
我拒絕了。
我表示，這是小事，你可以直接跟他溝通的。
這與我跟那位同學交情比較好，無關。
沒把這事放在心上的我，在休息時間跟左邊同學打招呼，被他刻意忽視，不理會。
我就這樣被列入他冷暴力的名單裡。
多無辜呀。
對於不成熟、不理智的人，我們很多時候真的是莫可奈何。
我當然可不以為意，但同學的態度確實有讓我感到難過和不舒服。
在過去幾週一起上課的期間裡，這位同學很常找我協助他，在休息時間一直拉著我要聽他說一些負面心情的話。
他說，他沒有可以說說話的人。
他今天的反應讓我反思過去幾週我對他的包容與體諒是不是太多了。
不過這樣多次互動，也就較清楚知道，課程結束後與他不會成為朋友我也不會有小小的難過。
結果，今天的塔羅牌抽到『負面性』。
若你也有這樣的情緒，不妨抽絲剝繭一下，想想是甚麼事情，甚麼原因造成的。
我現在的這課程蠻吃力的，週一確實會是大家要為新的一週學習課程重新調整步調，週二大部分同學都已可進入狀況。
不過，週二的課程內容很繁瑣，非常細緻的各種人工智能指令。
還沒上課，我的心已感到比平時多些煩躁。
可能積累了這段時間的疲憊，也沒能找到時間好好休息，我的心情就也輕鬆不起來，直盼望著這週趕緊結束，趕快過去。
我好再度迎接”無所事事的美好歲月”。
『負面性』 ~
總看到對方的缺點。
昨天的我，是。
總覺得對方過於負面。
昨天的我，是。
最近開始抱怨自己，批評別人。
關於自己，我是。
關於他人，有一點點 … 其實也就是有。
學習 ~
學習對負面思緒說”不”。
學習對負面情緒說”滾”。
學習對負面腦袋說”斷”。
學習對負面體驗說”捨”。
學習對負面批判說”離”。
學習看見光，享受光的明亮。
學習感受愛，沉浸愛的溫暖。
學習辨真實，相信實的穩固。
學習悟真理，了解真的坦率。
Tarot for Today, 2024-06-18: Negativity
Yesterday, there was a bit of unhappiness.
In the classroom, the air conditioning setup didn't match the current space layout, causing the left and right sides to feel like an iceberg and the equator, respectively. When the left side felt comfortable, people on the right had to wear hooded jackets, with cold air seeping in through sleeves and pant legs. If the right side felt comfortable, the left side would feel suffocatingly hot. As a result, a student on the right adjusted the air conditioning settings, which made the students on the left unhappy. Instead of voicing this issue, one of them asked me to speak to the student on the right, using a ridiculous excuse.
I refused. I said this was a small matter that they could handle directly. This had nothing to do with the fact that I was better friends with the student on the right.
I didn't dwell on this, but during the break, when I greeted the student on the left, they deliberately ignored me. Just like that, I was added to their silent treatment list. How innocent I am.
Dealing with immature and irrational people often leaves us helpless.
While I can shrug it off, the student's attitude did make me feel sad and uncomfortable. Over the past few weeks of class, this student often sought my help and constantly pulled me aside during breaks to vent their negative feelings. They said they had no one else to talk to. Their reaction today made me reflect on whether I had been too tolerant and understanding over the past few weeks. However, after these repeated interactions, it's clear that once the course is over, I won't feel sad about not becoming friends with them.
As it turns out, today's tarot card is "Negativity." If you also have such emotions, try to dissect and analyze what events and reasons caused them.
This course I'm taking is quite challenging, and Mondays are when everyone has to readjust to the new week's learning pace. By Tuesday, most students are already in the groove. However, Tuesday's course content is very detailed and intricate with various AI commands. Even before class started, I felt more restless than usual.
Perhaps due to accumulated fatigue and not finding time to rest properly, I haven't been able to lighten my mood, and I'm just hoping this week will end quickly so I can return to "the beautiful days of doing nothing."
Negativity
Always seeing others' flaws.
Yesterday, that was me.
Always feeling that others are too negative.
Yesterday, that was me.
Recently starting to complain about myself, criticize others.
About myself, yes.
About others, a little bit...actually, yes.
Learning
Learn to say "no" to negative thoughts.
Learn to say "go away" to negative emotions.
Learn to say "cut off" to negative thinking.
Learn to say "let go" to negative experiences.
Learn to say "leave" to negative criticism.
Learn to see the light, enjoy the brightness of light.
Learn to feel love, immerse in the warmth of love.
Learn to recognize truth, believe in the solidity of truth.
Learn to understand truth, appreciate the honesty of truth.