2024 0621 今日塔羅：創造者 Inventor
2024 0621 今日塔羅：創造者 Inventor
連續兩天都抽到同一張塔羅牌。
真的是讓我感到驚訝，且也深思有甚麼事情讓宇宙這樣提醒著我們。
昨天，上完最後一天的電腦培訓課程。
從完全不懂的小白，到現在，有些技能知道了，很多都還是懵懵懂懂。
過去在學校時，聽著那些搞不懂的專業科目，我到底是如何過關，如何仍對自己充滿自信，認為自己日後有能力可以在江湖上有風得走著。
年紀越長，看得越多，也曾走遠過，雖然也沒有走得太遠，就每天通勤到另一個城市而已，不過城市不同，屬性不同，看過廣闊的世界，認識很多很棒的人，深感自己的渺小，也覺自己的能力，可發揮的價值不多。
常會有”冒牌者心理”的感受浮上心頭。
我有像他們認為的那樣棒嗎？
我值得被人好好對待嗎?
應該很快就會被人發現我是硬撐的吧？
我總是佩服專業又有自信的人。
我總是欣賞能力強大又情緒穩定的人。
我總是靠近溫柔又善解人意的人。
我總是想要成為他們每一個人。
我也想成為創造者，創意者。
在我們的腦袋裡，每天激發龐大的能量，所以常常動腦後，會更覺疲憊，有些人會想吃東西，補充一下，有人則是會想睡覺。
心智，是東西嗎？
可說是東西，但又不具體。
不具體，無形，卻有確確實實的存在。
心智，你在想甚麼？你想要做甚麼？你怎麼想？你想怎麼做？
如何抓到腦中的飛逝而過的想法？
如何鍛鍊心智？
如何發揮心智？
這都是創造者可以思考的事情。
在學習電腦平面插畫的過程裡，除了技能的學習，技巧的練習，我自己發現一開始的發想、構想、構圖，就已是影響成敗的關鍵了。
技能可以靠持續學習而獲得。
技巧可以靠不斷練習而熟稔。
想法，構想，更是需要長期的發覺、發想、連結。
美的眼光在日日的培養，薰陶。
創意也是。
作家，需要持續地練筆鋒，練筆觸，也需要容納百川地多閱讀，多吸收各種常識、知識。
藝術家，需要勇敢地嘗試不同材質或工法，也須從各種角度欣賞、挖掘美的不同姿態，不同風景。
學習課程今日要結訓了。
不過，自我學習的路，是沒有終點時間的。
繼續努力。
Tarot of the Day for June 21, 2024: The Creator – Inventor
For the first time, I’ve drawn the same tarot card two days in a row.
This really surprises me and makes me reflect on what the universe is trying to remind us.
Yesterday, I finished the last day of a computer training course.
From knowing nothing at all, now I’ve gained some skills, although many aspects are still confusing.
In the past, when I was in school, I managed to pass those incomprehensible professional subjects.
How did I do it?
How did I remain confident, believing that I would be able to navigate the world successfully?
As I’ve grown older, seen more, and traveled further, though not too far—just commuting to another city each day—the different city with its distinct characteristics broadened my horizons. I met many amazing people and deeply felt my own insignificance.
I often questioned my abilities and the value I could offer. Feelings of being an "impostor" often surface.
Am I as good as they think I am?
Do I deserve to be treated well? Will people soon realize that I’m just faking it?
I always admire people who are professional and confident.
I always appreciate those who are highly capable and emotionally stable.
I am always drawn to gentle and understanding individuals.
I always want to become each of them.
I also want to be a creator, an inventor.
Our minds generate enormous energy daily, which often leaves us feeling exhausted after intensive thinking.
Some people might want to eat to replenish themselves, while others may feel the need to sleep.
Is the mind a tangible thing?
It can be said to be a thing, yet it is not concrete.
Intangible, invisible, but undeniably real.
Mind, what are you thinking?
What do you want to do?
How do you think?
How do you want to act?
How can we capture fleeting thoughts in our minds?
How can we train our minds?
How can we utilize our minds?
These are the questions that creators can ponder.
During the process of learning computer graphic illustration, besides acquiring skills and practicing techniques, I’ve discovered that the initial idea, concept, and composition are crucial to success.
Skills can be acquired through continuous learning.
Techniques can be mastered through constant practice.
Ideas and concepts require long-term discovery, brainstorming, and connection.
Aesthetic appreciation is cultivated and nurtured daily. So is creativity.
A writer needs to continuously practice their writing and touch, absorbing a wealth of knowledge and information from extensive reading.
An artist needs to bravely try different materials and techniques, appreciating and exploring beauty from various angles and different landscapes.
Today marks the end of the training course. However, the journey of self-learning has no end. Keep striving forward.
