Alyson’s 2/25 Tarot：感知者 Sensor
昨日是元宵節，在我們這裡這也是個團圓夜。
記得小時候，每到這天，媽媽像是過農曆除夕那般慎重。
因為呀，過了今夜，就不再是新年了，今天是習俗裡農曆新年的最後一天。
媽媽說，貪玩的心思要好好收一收，明天，真的得要努力認真學習和工作。
為了元宵夜，在農曆除夕前早就準備好了湯圓。
最喜歡媽媽手做的大顆鹹湯圓。
以前我家是從揉糯米皮開始製作，過程繁複，且作業日拉長。
元宵節前還要趕往市場買茼蒿，新鮮的豬肉，回來後手工切成細長肉絲條。
起鍋時，我喜歡灑一些白胡椒粉，更是將湯味提升為大人的滋味。
在節日期間，我總是感性高於理性，感受多過感知。
我的感受雷達很是靈敏，過去沒有塔羅的協助時，已可很快速得接收到旁人的情緒狀況，現在有塔羅這工具，我反而小心翼翼的辨別，甚至有時候，會刻意屏除感受到的氛圍。
感覺，總是加雜著很多自己的以為。
說是純粹，有時卻像是自以為是的認為。
感受，比感覺多了當下的直覺情緒。
我甚至認為，直覺是心裡最深層的秘密。
直覺，是反射性的直接反應，無法掩飾，不會說謊的反應。
感知，在我的想法裡，多了理性的思考。
我們於接收後，得過濾，得分辨，得坦討，這些過程都是理性的思維。
最終我們還是想要明白，神秘簾幕後是什麼？
可，畢竟我只是凡人，會膽怯，害怕，總是懦弱，想逃避。
也會思考，即使知道神秘後面的秘密，又如何？
生活是持續不停轉的。
我的認知、學習、成長、退化、躲避，是周而復始的循環，唯一不變的是沒有個固定規則可探尋分析。
繼續接收吧！
感知者，是宇宙給予的天賦與能力。
珍惜。
Yesterday was the Lantern Festival, which is also a reunion night for us.
I remember when I was a child, my mother treated this day with the same seriousness as Chinese New Year's Eve.
Because after tonight, it's no longer the new year; today is the last day of the lunar new year in customs.
My mother used to say, "Put away your playful thoughts; tomorrow, you really have to work hard and study seriously."
For the Lantern Festival, we had prepared tangyuan (sweet rice dumplings) well before Chinese New Year's Eve.
I especially loved the large savory tangyuan handmade by my mother.
We used to start by kneading the glutinous rice dough, a complicated process that stretched out the preparation time.
Before the Lantern Festival, we would rush to the market to buy shepherd's purse and fresh pork, then come back and hand-cut them into fine strips.
When cooking, I liked to sprinkle some white pepper, elevating the taste of the soup to an adult level.
During the festival, I always found myself more sensitive than rational, experiencing emotions more than perceptions.
My emotional radar was quite sensitive.
Even before I had the assistance of tarot, I could quickly pick up on others' emotional states.
Now with tarot as a tool, I'm more cautious in discerning and sometimes even deliberately block out the atmospheres I sense.
Feelings often mix with many assumptions of our own.
What we claim as pure sometimes turns out to be merely presumptuous.
Sensations include more immediate emotional intuitions.
I even believe intuition is the deepest secret of the heart.
Intuition is a reflexive, unfiltered response that cannot lie.
Perception, in my understanding, involves more rational thinking.
After receiving input, we need to filter, discern, and be honest.
These processes are all part of rational thinking.
Ultimately, we still want to understand: what lies behind the mysterious curtain?
But, after all, I am only human.
I get scared, afraid, often cowardly, wanting to escape.
I also ponder, even if I knew the secret behind the mystery, what then?
Life continues its ceaseless rotation.
My understanding, learning, growth, regression, and avoidance are all part of a recurring cycle.
The only constant is that there's no fixed rule to explore and analyze.
Keep receiving!
Sensor and perception is the gift and ability bestowed upon us by the universe. Cherish it.