Alyson’s 4/12 Tarot：誠信 Integrity (14-57)
Alyson’s 4/12 Tarot：誠信 Integrity (14-57)
問題：我4/11的未來日記主題
抽牌：誠信 Integrity
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有點不知道要如何決定，難道要繼續這樣走下去？
我在想，我很難成功吧！
老是猶豫不定。
老是怕東憂西。
始終沒有拿出破釜沉舟的勇氣。
甚至，現在連「未來日記」都不知道如何進行。
塔羅，對我而言，到底是怎樣的存在？
會在我快要失去信心時，神來一牌，把我感動得痛哭流涕。
卻也在原本滿滿的勇敢，因為一天天得看似沒有進展的情況，消磨殆盡。
是否因我尚未敞開心胸，全然接受宇宙會透過塔羅捎給我訊息，所以我依然半吊子似的，踽踽難行。
「未來日記」第二週的主題是「死亡Death」。
關於這張塔羅牌，有個含意，說”所有事物終究會結束的，接受他吧！”
而今日的副牌是「誠信 Integrity」，是隸屬於權杖牌。
宇宙希望我內觀自己的初衷，自己的內心。
啊！可我就是貪心呀。
我也想學習且取得證照成為一位職涯諮詢師，加上我的人力資源經驗，若能再與塔羅結合在一起，光是想到這個夢實現的那天，都覺自己會發散著是天下無敵的厲害光芒。
現實教育我要懂得低頭。
宇宙呼喊著要有所堅持。
「誠信」這張塔羅牌有一個意思，”遵循自己的路徑，不要害怕獨處，守住那些不會妥協和退卻的理想及價值觀，有骨氣地為自己和信念站出立場。”
宇宙呀！
請容許我多些彈性，多加一些現實經濟考量。
許多人的修行，非持缽化緣的和尚，我們無法達到那樣高階層次。
我們會做的，能做的，都是在紅塵打滾，尚保有一點理想，還存在一絲靈性。
我不會被他人擊垮，但，當我自己都沒有把握時，擊潰我的方式何須外力，何須他人。
是啊！
才上課第三天，已覺疲憊不已。
被限制在一個空間，一個位置，每天要花費那麼長的時間，這讓我極度不適應，抗議的不只有心情，還有身體。
今日是最後一天須決定是否要繼續。
抽張塔羅問問宇宙吧！
抽到了「改變」，這是行動牌，有著落地務實的含意。
宇宙說，”繼續學習。這是有幫助的。”
繼續吧！不能放棄！
塔羅牌是反應問牌的人的內心。
塔羅牌將你一直不願意直視，不願意接受的真相，藉由牌的抽取與閱讀，讓人無所遁形，無法逃避。
Alyson's 4/12 Tarot: Integrity (14-57)
Question: My 4/11 Future Diary theme
Card drawn: Integrity
I'm a bit unsure about how to proceed.
Should I keep going like this?
I keep thinking, will I ever succeed?
I'm always indecisive.
Always worrying about everything.
I never seem to muster the courage to take a stand.
Even now, I'm unsure how to proceed with my "Future Diary."
What does Tarot mean to me, really?
Sometimes, just when I'm about to lose faith, a card comes and moves me to tears.
But then, the courage I had, fueled by seemingly stagnant progress day by day, dwindles away.
Is it because I haven't opened my heart fully to accept the messages the universe sends through Tarot that I'm still stumbling along like this?
The theme for the second week of my "Future Diary" is "Death."
About this Tarot card, there's a meaning:
"Everything eventually ends, accept it!"
Today's secondary card is "Integrity," belonging to the suit of Wands.
The universe wants me to introspect my intentions, my inner self.
Ah! But I'm greedy.
I also want to learn and acquire certification to become a career counselor. Combined with my experience in human resources, just the thought of the day when this dream comes true makes me feel invincible.
Reality teaches me to be humble.
The universe calls for perseverance.
The "Integrity" card has a meaning:
"Follow your path, don't fear solitude, hold onto those ideals and values that won't compromise or retreat, stand up for yourself and your beliefs with integrity."
Oh, universe!
Please allow me some flexibility, some consideration for practical economic matters.
Many people's spiritual pursuits don't reach the heights of begging for alms like monks.
What we can do, what we are doing, is navigating through the mundane world while still holding onto some ideals, retaining a bit of spirituality.
I won't let others defeat me, but when I don't even have confidence in myself, what's the need for external forces to crush me?
Yes!
It's only the third day of class, and I already feel exhausted.
Being confined to one space, one position, spending so much time every day—it makes me extremely uncomfortable.
My protest isn't just in my mind, it's in my body too.
Today is the last day to decide whether to continue.
Let's draw a Tarot card and ask the universe!
I drew "Change," which is an action card, implying practical outcomes.
The universe says, "Keep learning. It's beneficial."
Let's continue! I can't give up!
