Alyson’s 4/18 Tarot：時空 Space (20-57)
Alyson’s 4/18 Tarot：時空 Space (20-57)
問題：我4/17的未來日記主題
夢中她今年剛離世的父親用著有點憂愁的眼神一直看著我同學。
我帶著同學和她及她的兩個孩子去海邊走走。
走在海灘礁石上，螃蟹在石縫中橫著走。
一邊叮嚀著小孩注意安全，我們兩人都沒說話，只是吹著海風，看著海。
白天的時光，我一直掛念著想詢問宇宙要傳達什麼訊息給我同學。
可，太忙了，沒有時間和機會。
倒是幫課程老師抽了塔羅牌。
她詢問是否要回去接手媽媽的企業。
抽到的是「時空」這張牌。
而這也是我今日的「未來日記」的副標。
https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/147025012
下課時，看著老師需要走近三十分鐘的路程道車站。
我將車子迴轉，開到她旁邊，跟她說”上車，我載妳一程，去哪？”
我想到最近好像很常有機會捎人載一程的緣分。
老師下車後，手機閃著光，臉書跳出來過去幾年的今天的回憶。
一瞬間，我愣住了。
一剎那，思緒還沒反應過來，淚先流下。
三年．
三年了。
爸爸離開，三年。
爸爸已離開，三年了。
姪子彈奏吉他，唱著送給他阿公的話。
我的淚，如雨下。
姪子的女朋友是爸爸離世後才認識的。
好多次姪子和女朋友聊天時，都會說”我阿公很喜歡 … 。””妳這些話，我阿公聽到會很開心 …。”
「時空」 ~
過去、現在、未來。
有繼承，有傳承。
有想念，有盼望。
披著獻祭者人皮的「阿茲特克的春之神」 ~
面對舊有因果業力，迎接著新生。
思緒超越時空，不侷限於現在。
過去和現在，思想與行為模式有著因果關係。
看著過去如何成就了現在，進而思考，未來的光景，是想要的嗎？
若不想，調整一下，讓業力轉向。
若想，繼續努力，再多堅持一下。
今日享有的，有過往的拼命、計較與繼承。
未來希望擁有的，需倚仗現在的業力去實現。
「時空」這張塔羅牌，讓我現在更想家，更想念爸爸了。
Alyson’s 4/18 Tarot: Space (20-57)
Question: My theme for 4/17's future journal
Card drawn: Space
This morning, I had a dream, a dream about a good classmate. In the dream, her recently departed father looked at my classmate with a somewhat sorrowful gaze.
I took my classmate and her two children for a walk by the seaside.
As we walked on the beach rocks, crabs scuttled between the crevices.
While cautioning the children to stay safe, neither of us spoke; we simply enjoyed the sea breeze and watched the ocean.
Throughout the day, I kept thinking about what message the universe might have for my classmate.
But, I was too busy, and there wasn't any time or opportunity.
Instead, I drew tarot cards for the course teacher.
She asked if she should go back to take over her mother's business.
The card drawn was "Space."
And this was also the subtitle for today's entry in my "future journal."
After class, I watched the teacher, who needed to walk about thirty minutes to the station.
I turned my car around, drove up beside her, and said, "Hop in, I'll give you a ride. Where to?"
I've noticed lately that there have been many opportunities to give someone a lift.
After the teacher got off, my phone flashed, and Facebook popped up memories from the past few years.
In an instant, I froze. In a moment, before my thoughts could catch up, tears flowed.
Three years.
It's been three years.
Dad left, three years ago.
Dad has been gone for three years.
My nephew played the guitar and sang words he wanted to say to his grandpa.
My tears fell like rain.
Thinking about how nephew's girlfriend only met Dad after he passed away.
Many times when my nephew and his girlfriend chat, she'd say, "My grandpa would have loved... " "Your words would have made my grandpa very happy..."
"Space" ~
Past, present, future.
Inheritance, legacy.
Yearning, hope.
Clad in the skin of a sacrificer, the "Aztec god of spring" ~
Facing old karmic forces, embracing new life.
Thoughts transcend space and time, not confined to the present.
The past and present, thoughts and behaviors, are causally related.
Watching how the past has shaped the present, and then considering, is this the future we want?
If not, adjust and redirect the karmic forces. If yes, keep striving, persevere a little longer.
What we enjoy today is the result of past efforts, calculations, and inheritances.
What we hope for in the future depends on the karmic forces we possess now.
The "Space" tarot card makes me miss home and Dad even more now.
