Alyson’s 5/13 Tarot：壓抑 Oppression (45-57)
Alyson’s 5/13 Tarot：壓抑 Oppression (45-57)
問題：我5/12的未來日記主題
抽牌：壓抑 Oppression
有一些事情，即使到老可能都不習慣。
有一種心情，即使到老可能都仍無法平靜。
人生難就難在”奢求”。
奢求在無法改變的事情面前是那樣蒼白無力。
只能”躲”或是”避”降低衝擊的力道。
隨著時間的堆砌，表面越來越可以平面如鏡。
幸福的是，今天，有好友。
一起吃早餐，聊聊近況，很久沒見，總是有許多話想說。
在這樣特別的日子裡，在自己已是局外人的現實中，
有人陪伴，很是美好。
「陪伴，是最好的協助。」
若是一個人，不至於情緒崩潰，但壓抑的內心，會在不自覺中襲擊。
在壓抑的日子裡，
一個人的時光，我不會出門。
我會在自己的小窩裡，也許發呆，也許閱讀。
煮一些菜，感覺餓的時候吃一些。
啃食蘋果，告訴自己好像健康有多一點點。
在自己的小窩，自在，隨心。
讓『壓抑』在分秒針旋轉不停的時間中，慢慢消散，退去。
被束縛住，掙脫不開。
有時是自己不想解開，自己靠上了腳銬手鍊，在柔軟的心窩打上許許多多的結，無法輕易解開。
有的時候，束縛，是因想牢牢惦記。
在烏鴉鴉的小黑屋裡，阻斷了交流，阻斷了感受。
而這樣，好嗎？
甜美的生活，誰都想。
清新的日子，誰都愛。
沒有對照，哪來的觸動。
逃避不了的時候，也可不用逼自己一定要勇敢面對。
情緒、心情，不管是喜樂還是生氣、悲傷，都會因時間而平息下來。
感覺壓抑的時候，放過自己吧，這段時間就當作自己在進行心靈大掃除，然後面對的大魔王是抽油煙機。
慢慢地梳理，慢慢地清洗。
累了，倦了，乏了，那就歇息吧。
Alyson's 5/13 Tarot: Oppression (45-57)
Question: My theme for 5/12's future journal
Card Drawn: Oppression
There are things, even in old age, that one may never get accustomed to. There's a state of mind that may never find peace, even in old age.
The difficulty of life lies in "yearning."
Yearning feels so feeble when faced with the unchangeable.
One can only "hide" or "avoid," diminishing the force of impact.
With time, the surface becomes as smooth as a mirror.
Thankfully, today, there are good friends.
Having breakfast together, catching up on recent events.
It's been a while since we've seen each other, always plenty to talk about.
On such a special day, in the reality where I'm already an outsider, having someone accompany me is truly wonderful.
"Companionship is the best assistance."
If one were alone, emotional breakdown might not occur, but the suppressed heart would strike unwittingly.
On days of oppression, I won't venture outside alone.
I'll stay in my own little corner, perhaps daydreaming, perhaps reading.
Cooking some food, eating when hunger strikes.
Nibbling on an apple, convincing myself I'm a little healthier.
In my own cozy corner, at ease, carefree.
Letting 'oppression' dissipate, slowly fade away in the relentless ticking of the clock.
Bound, unable to break free.
Sometimes it's because I don't want to untie myself, I've tied myself up in handcuffs, knots in the soft cocoon of my heart, not easily undone.
Sometimes, bondage is because of a desire to cling tightly.
In the dark little room, communication is cut off, feelings are blocked.
Is this okay?
Everyone wants a sweet life.
Everyone loves fresh days.
Without contrast, where's the stimulation?
When escape is impossible, there's no need to force oneself to face it bravely. Emotions, moods, whether joy or anger, sadness, will all subside with time. When feeling oppressed, give yourself a break.
Consider this time as a spiritual spring cleaning, facing the big boss being the kitchen exhaust fan.
Slowly tidy up, slowly cleanse.
If you're tired, weary, exhausted, then rest.
