Alyson’s 5/22 Tarot：倒吊者 Hanger Man (54-57)
Alyson’s 5/22 Tarot：倒吊者 Hanger Man (54-57)
問題：我5/21的未來日記主題
抽牌：倒吊者 Hanger Man
今天早上聽到了鬧鐘響，關掉後，起床煮咖啡，用電鍋蒸熱饅頭和水煮蛋，所有動作如同開始上課的每一天，也會持續這樣的動作直到課程學習結束。
看著還有點時間，能多瞇幾分鐘，對精神，對眼睛都是好的。
於是半躺在床上。
直到下次睜開眼，時間已過了一個多小時。
教室裡已開始上課，而我還在家裡。
遲到的時間超過十五分鐘，得請假了。
一進教室的課程，聽著老師說的內容，有點印象，但不是很記得。
果然，實務操作時間完全不知所措。
還好我位置的後面是個高手，他是我自己內定為我的小老師。
因有他的幫助，我在休息時間趕上了班上學習進度。
我同意今天我降伏在身體疲憊不已的事實裡。
於是每堂休息時間，我不聊天，沒有走出教室，就是在位置上休息。
每次靜態的停留與休息，都是在等待，等著精神恢復多一些，等著腦力可順利運轉，吸收課堂上的學習。
在今日課程結束後，我決定去操場散步走走。
雨滴開始落下，打溼了車子前檔窗玻璃。
運動，還去不去？
去。
這雨勢不大，天不夠黑暗，應這雨不會下太久時間。
果然，雨來得突然，也走得匆忙，不到一刻的時間，停了。
操場繞圈走著走著，也走了二公里多。
雨滴又落下。
精神疲憊得呼喊著回家休息。
身體因久坐，筋骨不舒坦地各處都痠痛，走路，是讓壓力釋放，是讓身體舒展。
還是繼續走吧。
走著走著，累積距離有五公里。
過與不及都不好。
五公里是我給自己設定的基本目標。
這樣的運動量，不夠我減重所需，可這段時間的我需要充足能量以應付每日的學習。
絆住我的現實狀況，與期望目標的差距，加上學習所需的耗能，及考量心情變化等因素，調降目標，調整心態，調動策略，接受此時的限制，接納此時卡住的狀態。
魚與熊掌無法兼得。
要專注在當下，當下的目標和當下的狀況。
倒吊人提醒 ~
此時是重生和新生命的準備階段。
我自己也是這樣看待近年內所有重大事情的背後含意。
順勢，是在被困住，停滯，被絆住時一個重要的心法。
有時急著打破眼前的凍結或凝結，會造成失焦，且距離真正的目標反而更遠。
慎思。慎行。
晚上的我因疲累，在沙發上不小心睡著了。
在沙發上休息前的我，對於今日塔羅抽牌實在是沒有精神和力氣可以進行。
最後反而因短暫時間的休息，讓我完成今日的功課，這不也是倒吊人的驗證。
Alyson’s 5/22 Tarot: The Hanged Man (54-57)
Question: The theme of my future diary on 5/21
Card drawn: The Hanged Man
This morning, I heard my alarm ring, turned it off, got up to make coffee, steamed buns and boiled eggs with an electric cooker. All these actions were as routine as starting a school day and will continue until my course ends.
Seeing I had a bit of time left, I decided to take a short nap to rest my eyes and mind. So, I half-lay on the bed.
The next time I opened my eyes, more than an hour had passed. Class had already started, but I was still at home.
Being over fifteen minutes late, I had to take a leave of absence. When I entered the classroom, I recognized what the teacher was saying but couldn't fully remember. As expected, I was completely lost during the practical session. Fortunately, a skilled student behind me, whom I had unofficially appointed as my little tutor, helped me catch up with the class progress during the break.
I acknowledged that today I was defeated by my sheer exhaustion.
Thus, during every break, I did not chat or leave the classroom but stayed at my desk to rest.
Each static pause and rest was a wait—for my energy to recover a bit more, for my brain to function smoothly, to absorb the lessons in class.
After today’s classes ended, I decided to take a walk on the sports field. Raindrops started falling, wetting the car's windshield. Should I still go for a walk?
Yes. The rain wasn’t heavy, the sky wasn’t too dark, and it probably wouldn’t last long. Sure enough, the rain came suddenly and left quickly, stopping in less than a moment.
I walked around the track, covering over two kilometers. Raindrops fell again. My weary mind called for home and rest. My body, stiff from prolonged sitting, ached all over. Walking helped release the tension and stretch my muscles. So, I kept walking. By the end, I had walked a total of five kilometers.
Neither too much nor too little is good. Five kilometers is my basic goal. This amount of exercise is not enough for weight loss, but I need enough energy to cope with daily learning.
The gap between my reality and my desired goals, combined with the energy demands of learning and mood fluctuations, required me to lower my goals, adjust my mindset, shift my strategies, accept the current limitations, and acknowledge the stuck state I was in.
You can't have your cake and eat it too.
I need to focus on the present, the current goals, and the present situation.
The Hanged Man reminds us ~
This is a preparatory stage for rebirth and new life.
I view the underlying significance of all major events in recent years in this way.
Going with the flow is an important mindset when feeling trapped, stagnant, or stuck.
Sometimes, urgently trying to break through the current freeze or solidification can cause you to lose focus, making the real goal even more distant.
Think carefully. Act cautiously.
In the evening, due to fatigue, I accidentally fell asleep on the sofa. Before resting on the sofa, I was too tired to even conduct today's tarot reading. In the end, the brief rest allowed me to complete my tasks for the day, which is also a validation of The Hanged Man's message.
