Being more minimalism, there’s wisdom in it.

Hi, friend ~

Just want to share my recent life with you guys.

I’m always into minimalism since very young age.

I think after one specific relationship, I really opened my spiritual journey and awareness to simplicity and its meaning.

So I kept trying to upgrade myself, understand how myself is working, how the society is functioning, how being a human being can be exhausting or fun on different aspects.

During the journey, I almost kept traveling literally back and forth. Now I see more clearly. I was easily get use to or surrender to harms. When I felt vulnerable, I tended to get back the old harmful surroundings just to catch breath. But NO, honey. You SHOULDN’T go back to where you don’ belong, where those harms kept happening only because it felt familiar. I felt sorry to my past self, then moved on.

After several times of moving and decluttering, my packages are always a few boxes. But this time when universe want me to see things and package my stuffs to get ready for next journey, I found out that my only 10 boxes still full of things that the universe urged me to let go of.

I traveled into my inner world, saw my trauma actually never being resolved, for years, I just numbed them and hide myself in shell. They want me to see through this and heal.

So I check every item I own, found out that lots of them are related to my past traumas. Because they’re so many of them, somehow I kind of feeling hard of let go ALL of them. It will be a biggest jump. It’s not like I didn’t do it before, it’s just…..I realized now that sometimes I throw away myself as long as those unwanted items. And….frankly I’m afraid of repeating those bad choices.

On the other hand, the moving actually is about focusing on my dream achievement. With little saving in bank accounts, my mind kind of being up and down quite a bit. The universe keep convincing me everything will be great, but when I was told it’s not a great time to do my dream related things, I needed to declutter first and move to new place to start my project, I felt panic attacks.

Anyway, I then try to slow down, I decide to recheck my items, prioritize them, which one need to go to the trash bin immediately, which one I can give it one more chance to stay longer a bit. I found out they do need to go away. But it triggered the lack mentality and disbelieve to the universe. I‘m still overcoming it. 

But I think every day I‘m more surrender to the process. I’m grateful being in this journey and run into people and places teaches me a lot. I think I’m almost ready now. No more changing minds and panic.

Bye items. Wish you NEVER come back.

Oh, just a warm remind. Bad things, bad people, ‘’devil’s voice’’ tend to attack you, whisper to you when you’re in lack mindset. Lack mindset is extremely low vibration. Please take a note in self, check if you’re in it. And have wisdom and confidence to say NO to those temptations.   :)

I love you, friends. I’ll see you next time~