2024 1129 阿寺：死亡 Death
2024 1129 阿寺：死亡 Death
你說，幾個月前你衝動下犯了一個大錯，這超過一百多天的日子，每夜無法安歇，清醒時間都在煩惱問題該怎麼辦，能怎麼解決，最糟糕的情況有可能會是如何，而你是否能夠承受。
你說，非常痛苦，無法生活，無法靜下心來。
你說，怎會變成這樣，你怎會讓自己變成現在這個模樣？
我，沒有話語可以安慰你，更無法鼓勵你。
有的時候我們會不知不覺做了某些決定，無法用理智或者是智慧去評論。
我想每個人天性裡的賭性，其實比我們認知的還要強大，且像是躲藏在角落裡，蠢蠢欲動著，只要有機會，就會以猛虎之姿跳躍出來，掌控全局。
你說，無法告知任何人發生了什麼事情，這讓你更痛苦。你形容這段期間不像是活著，比較像是活死人，得撐著這幾口氣，得把問題解決了，不能連累任何人。
我想說點話，卻不知道要說什麼，只能靜靜聽。
你說，你不是想找人說話的，你是想要找人聽你說說話，這幾個月所有的苦與澀，難與痛都在腹內、心上、腦中翻攪著，需要有個出口。
我們嘆，這社會，怎有那麼多心思惡意的壞人。
我們痛，這社會，怎有那麼多有心人利用著已是在低谷的人們，想要奮力一搏的勇氣。
宇宙送給阿寺的祝福是：【死亡 Death】。
這張塔羅牌有著憂傷者坐在愛達荷蛇河上，穿著黝黑深藍色的長袍，斗篷帽遮住了大半張臉，讓人會產生心中一沉的情緒，而後面又是新幾內亞祖靈的面具，像刀子般的鼻尖，讓人感到驚悚害怕。
我們都懼怕死亡，很難接受死亡的發生，而在宇宙裡，在這個萬物繽紛的世界上，死亡，是如常的事情之一，如同太陽升起落下般，那樣的自然。
而當抽到塔羅牌卡的死亡時，更是不需恐懼與擔憂。
孫子兵法說道，『投之亡地然後存，陷之死地然後生。』世界上，沒有任何一個人可以回到過去，然後有機會改變已經發生的事情。
宇宙透過【死亡】這張塔羅牌傳遞著，已發生的事情讓人感傷，而死亡之後呢？除了哀傷，難過，痛苦以外，也有著解放、自由與完完全全地切割。
當然也不能輕忽死亡背後的力量，那失落的情緒，那低迷的心情，那恐懼憂慮的心思，這一波波的不安與害怕，一時無法消散，仍會纏繞著你，要堅定心志，要好好地保有自己的心。
過去的錯的痛苦，放下吧。
人生就像一個杯子，杯內發臭的水得先倒掉，才能注入新氣象，人生也就有了轉機與生機。
加油！
別被自己的心魔打敗了。
2024-11-29 阿寺：Death
You said, a few months ago, in a moment of impulse, you made a huge mistake. Over the past hundred days or so, you haven’t been able to rest at night. During your waking hours, you’ve been consumed with worry—about how to handle the situation, how to resolve it, what the worst-case scenario might be, and whether you could endure it.
You said it’s been unbearably painful, that you can’t live your life,
can’t calm your mind.
You said, how did it come to this? How did you let yourself become the person
you are now?
I have no comforting words to offer, nor any encouragement to give.
Sometimes, we unknowingly make decisions that defy logic or wisdom.
I believe the gambling instinct in every person is far stronger than we
realize. It lurks in the corners, waiting for the right moment to leap out like
a tiger and take control of everything.
You said you can’t tell anyone what happened, which makes it even more painful. You described this period as less like living and more like being a walking corpse—barely breathing, holding on just enough to resolve the problem, ensuring no one else gets dragged into it.
I wanted to say something, but I didn’t know what to say. I could only
listen quietly.
You said you weren’t looking for someone to talk to; you just needed someone to
listen—to hear all the bitterness, sourness, difficulties, and pain that have
been churning within you for months. You needed an outlet.
We sighed: How can this society have so many malicious people with
scheming minds?
We ached: How can this world have so many opportunists preying on those already
at rock bottom, exploiting their desperate courage for one last gamble?
The universe sent 阿寺 the
blessing of Death.
This tarot card depicts a sorrowful figure sitting on Idaho's Snake River,
draped in a dark navy-blue robe with a hood that obscures much of their face.
The image evokes a sinking feeling, and the ancestral mask from New Guinea
behind them—with its knife-like nose—adds an air of horror and dread.
We all fear death. It’s hard to accept its inevitability. Yet in the
universe, in this vibrant world, death is one of life’s constants, as natural
as the rising and setting of the sun.
Drawing the Death card in tarot is nothing to fear or worry about.
As The Art of War says, “Throw them into perilous ground, and they will survive. Plunge them into death ground, and they will live.” No one can return to the past to change what has already happened.
The universe, through the Death card, conveys this: while what has occurred may bring sorrow, what follows death is not just grief, sadness, and pain but also liberation, freedom, and a clean break.
Of course, we must not underestimate the power behind death—its accompanying
emotions of loss, despair, fear, and anxiety. These waves of unease and dread
won’t dissipate easily and will continue to entangle you. You must stay
steadfast, holding onto your inner self.
Let go of the pain of past mistakes.
Life is like a cup; the stale water inside must first be poured out before
fresh water can flow in, bringing vitality and opportunities for renewal.
Stay strong!
Don’t let your inner demons defeat you.
