Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57)

Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57) 問題：我4/08的未來日記主題 抽牌：改變 Change 清晨做了惡夢，不過醒來之後，忘了夢境，只記得那悶在胸口的鬱，那想要大吼的氣。 可，終究我什麼也沒有做。 應該不是成熟穩重的關係。 單純只是明白了，那畢竟只是沒有意義的夢，也就不花費心思去記得。 「死亡」主題下的「改變」，像是我們中文”置之死地而後生”的覺悟。 可能因明天開始就要整天上課，連週末週日也都被學習佔滿了時間，心裡頭早就明白今天是近幾個月最後的悠閒日。 這一天，並非如朋友們常做的把握最後一刻春宵那般的放縱。 我反而將該處理的生活瑣事一件一件的完成。 我今日的思考狀態，工作執行狀況直接反映了今日塔羅牌「改變」，且是從心，從腦袋的思維改變。 今日就像是在為明天開始的新路程做預熱，也像是為過去散漫做個較為完整的結尾。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145941382 改變是為了往前走。 人生的千山萬水， 時代的變化萬遷， 在紅塵翻滾中存在的人們，就是得調整自己。 辦完事情後，回到家，想好好休息一場。 看著地上有著前兩天帶回來一大袋的蔬菜， 今日不處理，明天開始更沒有時間搞這弄那的， 認分吧！ 趕快用好，爭取早點休息。 這心態就與昨日不同啦。 昨日總想著，不是還有明日嗎？ 每一日都是擁有著永遠的明日。 而今天懂了。 雖然都是明日，可意義不同呀。 能任性胡鬧的日子中就已到盡頭。 於是我在今天買了一束香水百合送給了自己。 謝謝過去辛苦的自己。 謝謝現在願意調整改變的自己。 謝謝宇宙、造物主、老天、眾神明還有我可愛的爸媽，讓我有機會可以選擇，可以改變，讓我能夠成為與往昔不一樣的模樣。 攪拌著鍋，收著玩樂的心。 炒鏟著菜，收起散漫的意志。 今晚，得早睡。 今晚，希望能好睡。 明天，是延續今日舊習的新的一天。 明日，是開展新希望新路程的一天。 明兒個，很可能會是一番不適應和雜亂無章的一天。 Alyson's 4/09 Tarot: Change (11-57) Question: My journal theme for 4/08 Card drawn: Change This morning started with a nightmare, though upon waking up, the dream faded, leaving only the heaviness in my chest, the desire to scream held within. Yet, ultimately, I did nothing. It doesn't seem like a mature and stable response. Simply put, I understood that it was just a meaningless dream, not worth dwelling upon. "Change" under the theme of "Death" feels like the realization of the Chinese saying "out of the ashes, a phoenix shall rise". Perhaps because tomorrow marks the beginning of a full day of classes, with even the weekends occupied by studies, I've long understood that today is the last leisurely day in months. It wasn't a day to indulge like my friends often do on their last moments of freedom. Instead, I tackled each household chore one by one. My mindset and productivity today directly reflect the Tarot card "Change," both from the heart and in terms of cognitive shift. Today feels like a warm-up for the new journey starting tomorrow, and also a more complete conclusion to the past laxity. Change is necessary to move forward. In the vast expanse of life's ups and downs, amidst the ever-changing times, those who exist in the hustle and bustle must adapt. After finishing my tasks, returning home, I wanted to rest properly. Seeing the large bag of vegetables brought back a couple of days ago lying on the floor, I realized if I didn't deal with them today, I'd have no time tomorrow. Let's get it done! Quickly use them up and aim for an early rest. This attitude is different from yesterday. Yesterday, I kept thinking, isn't there always tomorrow? Each day holds the promise of eternity. But today, I understood. Even though it's always tomorrow, the significance varies. The days of carefree revelry have come to an end. So today, I bought myself a bouquet of perfumed lilies. Thank you to my past self for enduring all the hardships. Thank you to my present self for being willing to adjust and change. Thank you to the universe, the Creator, the heavens, the divine, and my lovely parents, for giving me the opportunity to choose, to change, allowing me to become a different person than I was in the past. Stirring the pot, taming the playful heart. Stir-frying the vegetables, disciplining the scattered will. Tonight, I must sleep early. Tonight, I hope for a good rest. Tomorrow, it's a new day continuing the old habits from today. Tomorrow, it's a day to embark on new hopes and journeys. #DreamCatcherTarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Change

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57)

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57) 問題：我4/19的未來日記主題 抽牌：抱負 Aspriration 經過將近兩週的煎熬與不停的練習，今天，總算沒有上週五的擔憂與恐懼。 有幾次都有跟上了老師教導的節奏，只是需要完全專注，稍微恍神，就糟糕了，整個歪掉的圖面，讓我哭笑不得。 休息時間跟同學聊著天，我說，很開心！今天有比上週進步了。且有些有跟上了。 突然有一個聲音說，聽到妳自己這樣說，我放心不少。替妳開心，這週的妳，進步不少，且都有跟上，也有聽懂了。 沒有注意到老師就在旁邊的我，被這突然的聲音嚇了一大跳。 笑著說，老師，休息時間不要這樣嚇人啊。我的精神只夠用在上課時間的。 這「未來日記」的第三週，主題是『隱士』。 我覺得『隱士』，是在山林間修行，做自己的高人，是率真的人，不太管別人怎麼說，怎麼想，怎麼講，他就做自己，做自己想做的事情，做自己喜歡的事情。 這樣的生活，有著踏實的安全，沒有高低起伏的絢爛與轉折，就是樸實的日子，是種可聽到時間在滴答過去的沉靜，不死寂，如何活動，如何證明活著，都自己決定。 在這樣的時光中，可以看山看雲看天空，聽雨聽水聽鳥叫聲。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/147245104 在這樣低調內斂的主題下，『抱負」要如何連結與貼近呢？ 這是今天的副標題，是權杖的牌卡之一。 『抱負』有一隻象徵向上移動的火炬，這是實現崇高理想和最大潛能的渴望。 就如同我今天想要搞懂和學習現在卡住的課程一樣。 因為內心的渴望，因為內心的好勝心，也因為初衷，想要學習這項技能，所以才會報名這個課程，才會讓自己每天都微笑著迎接新課程內容。 今天，我有成為想要成為的樣子。 今天，我有獲得想要獲得的技巧。 今天，我有活躍想要活著的模樣。 用專注，用意志力，用努力，還有一顆放鬆的心，迎向每一個學習日。 老爸老媽知道這樣的情況，都會笑話我，說，真是反了，年紀大了，才認真學習，不年輕了，才拼命用功。 早個幾十年就這樣努力，今日應可在家躺平悠閒了。 我知道自己『聰穎』，這是對許多人事物的洞悉力，可我不『聰明』，老是學不起來學校教的那些甲乙丙丁戊己更辛。 我知道自己有『智慧』，這是對人有同理心，有耐心，可我不『勤勞』，老是背不起來歷史中誰跟誰打仗，會計科目借貸雙方要如何才能平衡，更不懂微積分要做甚麼用，搞不懂重力加速度對我的生活有什麼幫助。 如今，在我心中有著一些夢想。 有的已發芽，有的還在吸收土壤營養。 這些一項、兩項、三項加起來是我的一大『抱負』，一個大目標、大夢想。 現在學習的課程、知識和技巧，就是為了成就這個有點遙遠的理想及渴望。 加油！ 靠近目標更接近了。 Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot: Aspiration Question: Theme for my journal entry on 4/19 Card drawn: Aspiration After nearly two weeks of struggle and relentless practice, today, finally, I didn't have the worries and fears of last Friday. There were moments when I kept up with the rhythm taught by the teacher, but just a slight distraction could ruin everything, causing the whole pattern to skew, leaving me both laughing and crying. During break time, chatting with classmates, I said, "I'm so happy! I've made progress today compared to last week. And I've managed to keep up with some parts." Suddenly, a voice said, "Hearing you say that puts me at ease. I'm happy for you. You've made significant progress this week, keeping up and even understanding." I hadn't noticed the teacher standing nearby, and this sudden voice startled me. I laughed and said, "Teacher, don't scare me like that during break time. My focus is only for class." The theme for the third week of this 'Future Diary' is "Hermit." To me, the "Hermit" is someone who practices in the mountains, living as their own sage, honest and true to themselves, regardless of what others say, think, or speak. They do what they want and what they love. This kind of life offers a solid sense of security. It's not about highs and lows, but rather simple days, where one can hear the quiet ticking of time passing by. It's not dead silence; it's about deciding for oneself how to move and prove one's existence. In such times, one can watch mountains, clouds, and the sky, listen to rain, water, and bird songs. Under such a discreet and introspective theme, how does "Aspiration" connect and resonate? This is today's subtitle, one of the cards of the wands. "Aspiration" features a torch symbolizing upward movement, the desire to achieve noble ideals and maximum potential. Just like how today I want to understand and learn the current stuck course. Because of inner desire, competitiveness, and the initial intention to learn this skill, I enrolled in this course, smiling every day to embrace the new course content. Today, I've become who I want to be. Today, I've gained the skills I want to gain. Today, I'm active as I want to be. With focus, willpower, effort, and a relaxed heart, I face each day of learning. My parents joke about this situation, saying, "Isn't it backward? Getting serious about learning when you're older, not striving hard when you're young. If only you had worked this hard decades ago, you could be lounging comfortably at home today." I know I'm "perceptive," with insight into many things, but I'm not "smart," always struggling to grasp what schools teach. I know I have "wisdom," empathy, and patience with people, but I'm not "diligent," always failing to memorize historical battles, how to balance debits and credits in accounting, or understanding the purpose of calculus or how gravity affects my life. Now, I have some dreams in my heart. Some have sprouted, while others are still absorbing the nutrients of the soil. These one, two, three goals add up to my "aspiration," a big goal, a big dream. The courses, knowledge, and skills I'm learning now are all aimed at achieving this somewhat distant ideal and desire. Keep going! Getting closer to the goal brings us closer. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Aspriration

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57) 問題：我4/07的未來日記主題 抽牌：宇宙 Universe 再次驗證了塔羅的神奇。 在10天前計畫將塔羅抽牌與撰寫未來日記兩者結合在一起。 那天晚上呼喊宇宙，請宇宙指引未來四週的每週主題。 接著抽出每個主題各七天的副題。 昨天寫著第二週的主題是「死亡Death」時，我還未發覺。 直到剛剛，看了之前塔羅抽牌紀錄，看到今天的副題是「宇宙Universe」，我的心情再度激動，又想流淚哭泣了。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145838932 今天我們一群朋友去探望一位已遠去的朋友。 在今年的三月中旬我們才知道他已離去許久。 陸陸續續我們討論著要去看他，大家橋著可以一同前往的日期，今日。 我還是像過往一樣，工作的事情與私人的事情，思緒是分開，沒有連結在一起。 其實這是個很難說明清楚的狀態。 明明，兩個面向是共用同一顆腦袋，同一個人的思緒，和在同一個行事曆角逐著各自可以佔有的比例。 對我來說，兩者之間能有機會串連在一起也就只有敲時間，橋行事曆上的空白處而已。 所以，在這稍早之前，我從未注意到今日塔羅的牌卡，與今日的私人行程連在起來。 今天早上，我並沒有時間去想，去寫今日的「未來日記」。 除了急著出門以外，最主要的是我沒有那份心情。 我不敢想像朋友長眠所在的樹葬地方情景，也不知道自己會是怎樣的心情。 我只記得包包裡要多放衛生紙，帶點餅乾、巧克力一起去。 原本計畫搭乘大眾交通工具去，卻在出發前兩天敵不過非常懶惰的自己。 這兩年多來，我把自己寵得是越來越嬌氣。 不想太辛勞的事情，就不勉強自己。 另一位朋友在臉書上寫著想念。 過往的對話，大部分我都想不起來。 我只記得我今天的哥斯大黎加，大嘴鳥莊園手沖咖啡，因另一朋友去詢問老闆關於咖啡的問題，打亂了老闆的節奏，結果我成了苦主，喝到一杯又苦又澀的咖啡。 就像是想到朋友已離開這件事情的心情。 我在自己挖掘的情緒坑洞裡掙扎。 我在樹梢被風吹過的搖晃裡擺盪。 宇宙說，這都是過程。 存在，是還在路上。 曾存在，是已完成。 死亡與再生，在宇宙奧妙平衡裡，分秒持續運動著。 他一人的離去，你幾人的難過，是滄海一粟，是江海一滴。 我的心情低落，是蒼白。 在浩瀚中，根本看不出來。 宇宙說， 有感受，有覺知，是存在與擁有，非失落。 應該要明白，要懂得，因擁有才會感到痛。 花開花落。 潮起潮落。 有機會能說聲”再會”，是很好的告別。 走過人間，終會一別。 不枉相遇相識這一場。 Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot: Universe (10-57) Question: The theme of my future diary for 4/07 Card drawn: Universe Once again, the magic of tarot is validated. Ten days ago, I decided to combine tarot card drawing with writing my future diary. That evening, I called out to the universe, asking it to guide the themes for each week of the next four weeks. I then drew sub-themes for each week, spanning seven days each. Yesterday, as I wrote that the theme for the second week was "Death," I didn't realize its significance. It wasn't until just now, as I reviewed my previous tarot card draws and saw that today's sub-theme is "Universe," that my emotions were once again stirred, and tears threatened to fall. Today, a group of friends and I went to visit a friend who has already departed. It wasn't until mid-March of this year that we learned of his passing. We had been discussing visiting him intermittently, bridging the dates when we could all go together, which happened to be today. As usual, I compartmentalized my thoughts between work and personal matters. It's a difficult state to articulate. Although both aspects share the same mind and calendar, they seem disconnected, with the only opportunity for connection being the occasional overlap in my schedule. Thus, until just earlier, I hadn't noticed the connection between today's tarot card and my personal agenda. This morning, I didn't have the time or the mindset to think about or write today's "future diary." Aside from rushing out the door, I simply wasn't in the right headspace. I dare not imagine the scene at the tree burial site where our friend rests, nor do I know what emotions to expect from myself. All I remember is to pack extra tissues in my bag and bring some biscuits and chocolate along. Originally, I planned to take public transportation, but two days before departure, my overwhelming laziness got the better of me. Over these past couple of years, I've grown increasingly pampered. If it's something I don't feel like exerting effort for, I simply won't force myself. Another friend wrote on Facebook expressing their longing. Most of our past conversations escape my memory. All I can recall is my time in Costa Rica, at the Toucan Rescue Ranch, hand-brewing coffee, while another friend asked the owner coffee-related questions, disrupting the owner's rhythm and resulting in me being served a bitter cup of coffee. It's akin to the feeling of realizing that a friend has departed. I'm struggling within the emotional pits I've dug for myself. I sway amidst the swaying of the treetops in the breeze. The universe says, this is all part of the process. Existence is still on its journey. What once existed is now complete. Death and rebirth, within the mysterious balance of the universe, continue to move forward. The departure of one person, the sorrow of a few, is but a drop in the ocean. My melancholy is insignificant amidst the vastness. The universe says, to feel, to be aware, is to exist and possess, not to lose. One should understand, should comprehend, that pain comes from having had something. Flowers bloom and wither. Tides rise and fall. The chance to say "farewell" is a gracious parting. Having traversed this earthly realm, farewells are inevitable. Our meeting and acquaintance were not in vain. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Universe

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57) 問題：我4/13的未來日記主題 抽牌：力量 Strength 昨天參加一個培訓課程，關於協談，關於志工，關於自殺議題。 課程內容是嚴肅的，同學是親切的，老師們與主辦單位的人們很是溫柔。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/146682463 上午滿滿的四小時，有數據分析，有現況分享，有醫師專業知識的傳授。 下午滿滿的四小時，是團體課程，有遊戲，有認知，有分享。 上完一天課程結束後，回到家要寫功課，將一天的學習心得與團體體驗一一回饋。 將所有指定作業完成已凌晨。 太累了，沒有精神再提筆寫「未來日記」的塔羅日誌。 今天補上。(然後今天的，卻又得明天補了，希望明天我可以將進度趕上，別再拖延。) 今天「未來日記」的塔羅抽牌是「力量」。 完完全全地貼切著我今日一整天的學習課程。 我報名參加一個志工培訓課程。 這是『1995』是防治自殺專線志工培訓。 經過三階段的學習與評量後，方能成為志工，才能開始進行協助他人的事情。 若問我，那麼多的志工，為何選擇『1995』？ 很難回答這個問題，因沒有仔細酌量與思考過。 二十多年前知道『1995』，覺得這是很有意義的，且真摯佩服這些大愛的志工們。 這些是無名英雄，協助他人，是不留名，不現身的。 一直有想貢獻能力予社會的想法，在朋友號召下，連同我和幾位朋友就一起報名了。 曾有過想哭卻哭不出來的痛嗎？ 曾有過痛到心已麻痺，只覺空洞嗎？ 找不到生命的出口，眼前雖不是黑暗，但確實是看不清楚的。 在迷濛裡，沒有方向，心，虛浮著，恐懼驟升，無法停歇地慌。 可以跟誰說？ 會讓人擔心的。 會被人責罵的。 不安穩的心，煩憂的事情不間斷，何時可安歇？何處可安息？ 生命的幽谷，這路，多長？多窄？多暗？多讓人害怕？ 不經意掉下的小石，打在無處可躲藏的身心上，痛得眼淚逼出，沒人知道傷痕累累又疲乏的靈魂，早已蒼白無力。 如果，因為我短短的陪伴，靜靜的凝聽，電話那頭的陌生人，在這段時間裡放心地坦述，願意再多走一點點的路，我就會感受到值得。 疼惜每個受傷的靈魂，疼惜每個傷痕，疼惜每個痛苦和難過。 不懂，這世上為何就是有人忍心傷害他人？ 不懂，為何有時施暴者是那些受害者最親近，最親密的人？ 在這麼多不懂和問題下，解題或找到答案從來我就不擅長。 但我能”傾聽”，我能”陪伴”，我能”理解”。 我曾踏上山巔，我也曾走在山坡丘陵與小低谷裡。 低谷就已讓我難受與心傷，那些在幽谷小徑中走不出來的人，又是承受多少的傷和痛。 我認為能有幫助別人的機會，是幸運，是緣分。 我覺得能夠擁有能力去幫助別人，是幸福的人。 我想擁有幫助他人的能力並且也擁有幫助別人的機會，這是福氣，這是福報。 我會珍惜這堅守心智的”力量”。 我會守護好想要付出與貢獻的”心力”。 這是我的寶貝，要更加珍惜保護的寶貝。 「力量」這張塔羅牌，在埃及祭祀人員的頭上頂著一個大盤，上面有顆蛋型狀的寶物，這是讓人用生命，用誓言，用心保護守護的。 如同，我想保守住自己堅強的心志，保守住自己內心的信念與期盼。 ”將愛傳下去” ~ 傳給需要的人。 親愛的宇宙，請賜予我溫柔的力量，堅定的力量，希望的力量。 Alyson's 4/14 Tarot: Strength (16-57) Question: My theme for the diary of 4/13 Card Drawn: Strength Yesterday, I attended a training course on negotiation, volunteering, and suicide prevention. The content of the course was serious, the classmates were friendly, and the teachers and organizers were very gentle. The morning session was packed with four hours of data analysis, current situation sharing, and imparting professional knowledge from doctors. The afternoon session, also four hours long, consisted of group activities, cognitive exercises, and sharing. After completing a full day of classes, I returned home to do my homework, diligently reflecting on the day's learning and group experiences. I stayed up until the early hours of the morning to complete all the assigned tasks. I was too exhausted to muster the energy to write the Tarot journal for the "Future Diary" yesterday. Today, I'm catching up. (And then, today's, which will have to be postponed until tomorrow, hoping I can catch up with my progress tomorrow and not procrastinate anymore.) Today's Tarot draw for the "Future Diary" is "Strength," perfectly reflecting my entire day of learning. I signed up for a volunteer training course. It's the "1995" Suicide Prevention Hotline Volunteer Training. After three stages of learning and assessment, one can become a volunteer and start helping others. If you were to ask me why I chose "1995" out of so many volunteer opportunities, it would be difficult to answer because I hadn't carefully considered or thought about it. More than twenty years ago, I learned about "1995" and felt it was meaningful. I truly admire these selfless volunteers. They are unsung heroes who assist others without seeking recognition or fame. I've always had the desire to contribute to society. At the urging of friends, a few of us signed up together. Have you ever experienced pain so intense that you couldn't cry? Have you ever felt so numb to the point of emptiness? Unable to find an exit from life's struggles, although not in darkness, everything seems blurry. Lost and directionless, with a floating heart, fear rises abruptly, and the panic is relentless. Who can you talk to? It would worry them. You'd be blamed. The restless heart, the continuous worry, When will it find peace? Where can it find solace? How long and narrow is the valley of life? How dark and terrifying is it? The small stones that fall inadvertently, hitting the body and mind with nowhere to hide, the pain forces tears out, but no one knows the soul, battered and weary, has long been pale and weak. If, because of my brief company, quiet listening, the stranger on the other end of the phone feels comfortable enough to confide and is willing to walk a little further, I feel it's worthwhile. Caring for every wounded soul, every scar, every pain and sorrow. Why is it that some people can hurt others without remorse? Why is it that sometimes the perpetrators are the ones closest to the victims? Under so many questions and uncertainties, I've never been good at finding solutions or answers. But I can "listen," I can "accompany," I can "understand." I've walked on mountain peaks, I've walked in hills and valleys. The valleys were already painful and heartbreaking for me. How much pain and hurt do those who can't find their way out of the dark paths of the valley endure? I believe having the opportunity to help others is fortunate, it's fate. I feel that having the ability to help others is a blessing. I want to have the ability to help others and also have the opportunity to help others; this is good fortune, this is karma. I will cherish the "Strength" of my perseverance. I will guard the "heart and soul" I want to contribute and give. It's my treasure, a treasure I must cherish and protect even more. The Tarot card "Strength" depicts a large disk resting on the heads of Egyptian priests, with an egg-shaped object on top, something to be protected with life, vows, and heart. Just as I want to preserve my strong determination and safeguard my inner beliefs and hopes. "Pass on the love" ~ Pass it on to those in need. Dear universe, please grant me gentle strength, firm strength, and hopeful strength. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Strength

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57)

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57) 問題：我5/14的未來日記主題 抽牌：改變 Change 今天與朋友討論的事情與今日的塔羅牌非常吻合 ~ 改變。 一個多月以來，每天持續學習新技能，希望能夠累積更多的學習經驗。 一邊學習，一邊思考，該怎麼做可以持續學習與練習，可以如何運用呢。 與同學討論與交換想法，並請教同學之後她會如何持續練習我們現在所學習的技能。 我們都朝著自己設定的未來前進，這樣的感覺，很是不錯。 前幾日才知道昔日有位同事今已成為理財名人，還有雜誌專訪。 我沒有投資理財的知識與技術，雖然非常羨慕，可終究不是適合我的路。 我沒有投資創業的機遇與財力，真的很是羨慕，可總是得面對現實的路。 可，我知道，我也是許多人羨慕的對象目標。 擁有選擇權，已屬幸運與幸福。 我現在要創造的是未來的平穩和豐盈。 如果我想要協助更多人，那我需要具備更多的能力。 我清楚明瞭，我的這一世，是需要不停動手勞動，動腦勞心的。 學習，是不二法門。 累積學習，多元學習，有效學習，融會學習，聰明學習是我這幾年得多加努力，且戰且實驗且調整的策略。 我首先改變的是執行力。 過往想比做的多，我的塔羅老師，我的前主管，都比我還著急。 他們怕我的大運勢都快已經過去了，我仍還在拖遲，在猶豫。 而我擔憂的是，每日我都距離我的大限更靠近一點，再不加緊腳步，如何完成我這一世的使命，對我的英雄之旅，又該如何論結局。 我也改變了思考邏輯。 我不再問怎麼辦，也不問為什麼。 看到學習機會的資訊，時間允許，就立即報名參加。 時光不為誰停留，機會也是，時機更是。 接著我改變我的筆觸。 從提問句，改變為肯定句。 從主觀詞，改變為客觀詞。 從無病呻吟的調性，希望能夠改變為晴朗輕鬆的陽光類型。 最近這段期間，真的是我這輩子最用功，最認真，最癡迷於學習的時光了。 很忙，很累，很是疲倦。 收穫滿滿。 獲益滿滿。 學習滿滿。 喜悅滿滿。 『改變』 就是要如同變色龍，隨著情勢、季節而不斷改變。 改變，是從內心開始營造，非長髮剪成短髮，原是蘿莉風改為清新脫俗風。 改變，最棒的情境是自然地發生，但有時還是得逼迫一下。 停滯不動，如同蟬寶寶變成蛹，若不想使勁地破繭而出蛻變成蝴蝶，死亡也就成了另一個必然的結局。 在改變之前，我做了以下的事情 ~ 第一、 確定目標，重新導航。 第二、 做功課，瞭解實現目標的選擇種類。 第三、 檢視自己，更加了解自己，並明白欠缺甚麼，也就是要學習補足的事情。 第四、 衡量評估自己當下現況可以擔起哪一項選擇。 第五、 行動，學習。 第六、 通告家人、親人、好友們，生活比重因學習而要調整。 這是我這世最後一次志向與職業大翻盤，需下猛藥，需認真面對。 第七、 享受不足，享受吸收知識的過程，像是飢腸轆轆時吃著一口口的美食，那滿足感和喜悅，讓人感到幸福，開心不已。 第八、 一邊學習，一邊審視現實，擬定及調整學習步調、節奏與方向。 第九、 不斷鼓勵、激勵自己並適時犒賞自己。 學習，除了動力，也要不停添加柴火，維持動能。 該休息時，休息。 該獎勵時，獎勵。 第十、 接受唯有現在才是最需重視與珍惜。 當下該怎麼辦，就怎麼辦，別再問怎麼辦。 Alyson's 5/15 Tarot: Change (47-57) Question: The theme of my future diary for 5/14 Drawn card: Change The topic I discussed with friends today aligns perfectly with today’s tarot card ~ Change. For over a month now, I have been continuously learning new skills daily, hoping to accumulate more learning experience. While learning, I think about how I can sustain my practice and how I can apply what I've learned. I discussed and exchanged ideas with classmates, asking them how they plan to continue practicing the skills we are currently learning. We are all moving towards our self-set futures, and it feels great. A few days ago, I learned that a former colleague has become a financial celebrity and has been featured in a magazine interview. I don’t have the knowledge or skills in investment and finance. Although I am very envious, it is ultimately not the path for me. I lack the opportunities and financial means for investment and entrepreneurship. I am indeed envious, but I must face the reality of my own path. However, I know that I am also an object of envy for many. Having the power of choice is already a blessing and a happiness. What I need to create now is future stability and abundance. If I want to help more people, I need to acquire more abilities. I clearly understand that in this life, I need to continuously work hard and think diligently. Learning is the only way. Accumulating learning, diversified learning, effective learning, integrated learning, and smart learning are strategies I must diligently pursue, experiment with, and adjust in the coming years. The first thing I am changing is my execution. In the past, I thought more than I did. Both my tarot teacher and my former supervisor were more anxious than I was. They worried that my major opportunities were slipping away while I hesitated and delayed. What I worry about is that every day brings me closer to my final deadline. If I don’t pick up the pace, how will I fulfill my life’s mission and complete my hero’s journey? I have also changed my thought process. I no longer ask “What to do?” or “Why?” When I see learning opportunities and if time permits, I immediately sign up. Time doesn’t wait for anyone, nor do opportunities or timing. Next, I changed my writing style. From questioning sentences to affirmative ones. From subjective words to objective words. From a tone of lamentation to a bright and relaxed sunshine type. Recently, this has been the most hardworking, earnest, and obsessive learning period of my life. Very busy, very tired, very exhausted. But filled with abundant harvests, benefits, learning, and joy. “Change” means being like a chameleon, constantly changing with the situation and the seasons. Change starts from within, not merely cutting long hair into short or switching from a cute style to an elegant one. The best change happens naturally, but sometimes it needs to be forced. Stagnation, like a cicada larva turning into a pupa, if it doesn’t strive to break out of its cocoon and transform into a butterfly, death becomes the inevitable outcome. Before making a change, I did the following: 1.Confirmed my goals and re-navigated. 2.Did my homework to understand the options for achieving my goals. 3.Examined myself to understand my deficiencies and what I need to learn to fill those gaps. 4.Assessed what choices I can handle given my current situation. 5.Took action and started learning. 6.Informed family, relatives, and friends that my life balance would need adjusting due to my learning. This is my last major ambition and career overhaul in this life, requiring serious effort and a serious approach. 7.Enjoyed the process of learning, akin to savoring delicious food when hungry, bringing satisfaction and joy, making me feel happy. 8.Continuously reviewed reality while learning, adjusting the pace, rhythm, and direction of my learning. 9.Constantly encouraged and rewarded myself appropriately. Learning requires not only motivation but also the continuous addition of fuel to maintain momentum. Rest when needed, reward when deserved. 10.Accepted that only the present moment is most crucial and should be cherished. Do what needs to be done now without asking what to do. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Change

Alyson’s 4/22 Tarot：更新者 Regenerator (24-57)

Alyson’s 4/22 Tarot：更新者 Regenerator (24-57) 問題：我4/21的未來日記主題 抽牌：更新者 Regenerator 今天中午參加了一場喜宴。 對於這兩週來的辛苦，身體升起了防衛機制。 早上很晚才醒過來，原本想去聽的簡報分享，就錯過了，很可惜。 昨晚有在心裡頭對今天的行程做了簡單的描繪和想像。 腦海中有浮現開車到喜宴餐廳的位置，但沒有細想，沒有想像到停車的情況，結果今天抵達餐廳時被告知四個停車場皆沒有停車位了。 對於早上的簡報分享是沒有進行任何想像。 昨晚應該潛意識就已經做好了決定，所以今早也就沒有早點起床的動力。 喜宴上，同桌的有一位長者，年屆八十歲。 她說，她是自己搭乘計程車前來喝喜酒的。 她分享了人生的知識與經歷 ~ 人生莫計較太多，身體健康是第一，後面的許多”零”才有意義。 要記得自己擁有的幸運，並珍惜老天的眷顧。 有能力付出，不要吝嗇。 夫妻相處要有共同興趣，夫妻，是老來伴。 父母對已婚孩子的事情要懂得放手，不過問太多，因陪孩子到老的是他的另一半。 朋友之間千萬別有金錢往來和利益關係。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/147442924 老人家在桃園一家關懷照顧植物人基金會擔任志工長達二十三年。 她看多很多人生故事。 她說，最近發生一件事情讓她很是難過，也曾經很生氣，甚至懷疑老天。 她分享，有一位志工，跟她一樣在那基金會服務多年，人很好，很付出，很努力。 但，有一天，這位志工朋友她都沒有再遇到過。 她也沒想太多，以為是有事情要忙，或者是值班時間錯開，所以才沒再看過。 直到有一天，基金會工作人員告知說等一下需要接收一位新的植物人患者。 當工作人員一邊說的時候，神情難過，眼眶紅。 沒想到，新的植物人患者就是那位志工朋友。 老人家說，這讓她懷疑了善良、付出自己，怎會落得這樣的結果。 老人家依然一邊做著志工工作，一邊思考這個問題。 直到她把這問題內觀到自己的身上。 她想到，曾經被醫生宣告粉碎性骨折，無法再站起來行走的她，現在雙腿有力且活動自如。 這就是老天對一直付出的她給予的回饋與呵護。 「更新者」這張塔羅牌，告訴我們 ~ 作為一位更新者及恢復者，在情感上是有豐富創造力，就像是滋潤生命的及時雨，豐富與灌溉著土地。 今日的喜宴上，當主持人請新郎給予新娘的父母承諾會好好照顧他們的女兒，會跟新娘攜手一輩子好好過的時候，我含著淚，坐在附近的新郎同事朋友們也都哭了。 最可愛的是新郎的雙胞胎姊姊，哭得唏哩嘩啦得，完全沒有在顧及臉上精緻的妝容。 這是一場很有愛的婚禮。 很榮幸被邀請。 很高興有前去。 「更新者」可以創造新的情感生活和生命力。 「更新者」是個治療者，像是不停冒出泡的湧泉水，洗滌著交流的心靈，平撫傷痛和被困擾，糾結著的心。 今天，我和哥哥很幸運，有緣分認識那位老人家，幸運地能聽到她的人生經歷與分享。 喜宴結束後，我們詢問老人家居住的地點，並邀請她搭乘我的車子，我開車，和哥哥一起送她回家。 因為今天的愛能量流動得很強勁，讓我很放鬆，心也被這麼多的愛給溫暖，結束喜宴回到家後，整個人疲倦，也就陷入休息睡眠狀態。 這兩週來的疲憊，經過這兩天的熟睡，消散不少，真好。 Alyson's 4/22 Tarot: The Regenerator (24-57) Question: Theme of my 4/21 journal entry Card drawn: Regenerator Today I attended a wedding banquet at noon. After the hard work of the past two weeks, my body has initiated a defense mechanism. I woke up late in the morning and missed the presentation I intended to attend, which was a pity. Last night, I briefly depicted and imagined today's schedule in my mind. There was a vague image of driving to the wedding banquet venue in my mind, but I didn't think it through, didn't imagine the parking situation, and as a result, when I arrived at the restaurant, I was informed that all four parking lots were full. I didn't engage in any imagination about the morning presentation. Subconsciously, I must have already made a decision last night, so I didn't have the motivation to wake up early this morning. At the wedding banquet, there was an elderly lady sitting at my table, eighty years old. She said she had come to the wedding banquet by taking a taxi. She shared her knowledge and experiences in life~ In life, don't worry too much, health is the most important, the many "zeros" behind only have meaning then. Remember the luck one possesses and cherish the blessings from above. If capable, do not hesitate to give. For a couple to get along, they must have common interests, for spouses are companions in old age. Parents should learn to let go of their married children's affairs, avoid asking too much, because the one accompanying the child to old age is their spouse. Never let money transactions and self-interest come between friends. The old lady has been volunteering for the Vegetative Care Foundation in Taoyuan for twenty-three years. She has seen many life stories. She said, something happened recently that made her very sad, even angry, and she even doubted the heavens. She shared that there was a volunteer, like her, who had served at the foundation for many years, a good person, very dedicated and hardworking. But one day, she never saw this volunteer friend again. She didn't think much of it, thinking the friend must be busy or their duty hours conflicted, so she didn't see them again. Until one day, the foundation staff informed her that they needed to receive a new vegetative patient later. As the staff spoke, they looked sad, their eyes red. Unexpectedly, the new vegetative patient was that volunteer friend. The old lady said this made her doubt kindness, selflessness, how could it lead to such a result? Yet, she continued her volunteer work while contemplating this question. Until she introspected on this question within herself. She thought of herself, who had been declared with a comminuted fracture by the doctor, unable to stand and walk, but now her legs are strong and agile. This is the reward and care from heaven for her continuous dedication. The Tarot card "Regenerator" tells us ~ As a regenerator and healer, there is abundant creativity emotionally, like timely rain nourishing and irrigating the land. At today's wedding banquet, when the host asked the groom to promise to take good care of the bride's parents and to live a good life with the bride, I sat nearby with tears in my eyes, and the groom's colleagues and friends also cried. The most adorable was the groom's twin sister, crying uncontrollably, completely disregarding the delicate makeup on her face. This was a wedding filled with love. I was honored to be invited. I was glad I went. "Regenerator" can create new emotional life and vitality. "Regenerator" is a healer, like bubbling spring water continuously cleansing the soul of communication, soothing pain and resolving the entangled heart. Today, my brother and I were lucky to meet that old lady, fortunate to hear her life experiences and sharing. After the wedding banquet, we asked where the old lady lived and invited her to ride in my car. I drove, and my brother and I sent her home together. Because the energy of love today flowed so strongly, I felt very relaxed, my heart warmed by so much love. After returning home from the banquet, I was exhausted and fell into a state of restful sleep. The exhaustion of the past two weeks, after two days of deep sleep, dissipated quite a bit, which was wonderful. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Regenerator

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57) 問題：我5/24的未來日記主題 抽牌：憤怒 Anger 太棒了！總算來到「未來日記」的最後一天。 長達五十七天的塔羅實驗，近兩個月的時間來到尾聲。 呼！ 不算短的時間。 五十七天，應有五十七篇，最後產出五十篇。 沒有產出的七篇，其中有五篇因身體或時間狀況無法寫出，剩餘二篇，塔羅預先抽出的牌卡與當日沒有事項連結，實在不知要如何下筆，因此就空著。 而產出的五十篇中，有二篇，預先抽出的塔羅牌卡與當天的實際日記無法互相呼應，思索後，決定就不進行記錄，其實應該也是要寫下，這樣實驗的過程和紀錄才能夠完整，可實在是太忙了，忙到每天睡眠不足又太疲憊了。 這次實驗表格的紀錄需要再調整，再精進。 有的時候就是這樣，計畫的時候，不是沒有考慮周全，而是經驗值不夠，所以有需要紀錄的項目沒能去設想到，直到現在要整個資料整理、回顧時，才發現，紀錄不夠完整，不夠詳盡。 有點可惜。 可也無法再多著墨什麼。 對於是實驗主題的最後一天來說，今天的塔羅牌『憤怒』，實在不是一個美好的句點。 轉個彎思考，今天，是一年三百六十五天的其中一天，並不特別，是我迄今歲數近一萬八千天的其中一天，並不稀奇。 不是美好的句點，感覺也就沒有那麼可惜或需要多較真了。 不過，也驗證了今天的很多事情，都是不順利，且現在回想是有一點點情緒產生的。 首先，原本週五課程的老師突然離職，換了一位新老師，是錯愕。 再來，新老師教學內容是我個人已經付費購買的軟體，花了不少錢，現在可以用老師分享的學生權益使用二個月，感覺這兩個月的費用像是被坑了，心情有點不美麗。 學習內容是自己沒有時間，也不會研究的使用方式，有收穫，卻又敗在其他軟體搞不懂的項目裡，好難過，對自己失望了。 請助教老師協助了解一些事情，被打馬虎呼巄過去。對於工作如此不盡心的人，想起前一段時間他說他被以前的學員投訴工作狀態，對照他今日的情況，突然覺得他沒被冤枉。 對這樣的情況，我非他同事或主管，無法評斷也不想臆測，只覺可惜了。 緣分是要俱足。 俱足之前看自己是佈施呢，還是結怨？ 現在栽種的是什麼，日後也就結什麼果。 根據磁石法則來論，以後，只怕會跟他爭論、爭執，進而衍生出爭議的事情，可能會層出不窮。 這做人做事的道理，難言明。 燈不能點亮，話不能說白。 道，貴在自悟，痛在自誤。 想吃的晚餐，今天沒有營業，小難過。 隨意找家燒烤店，簡單點了幾樣，要價竟然是一天的伙食費用，覺得自己真不會持家，挫折不已。 年紀大了，往昔的大怒，大聲責罵，已難再有了。 除了心裡面不想以外，身體狀況也不允許如此高起低跌般的刺激。 頂多就是心口，有點堵，小塞一下。 過了，也就沒事了。 因為知道『憤怒』 ~ 憤怒的情緒就像杯子那般脆弱，稍微大力一碰撞，就裂了，碎了。 憤怒讓自己像是一隻持續噴出火焰的恐龍，眼睛睜紅，感覺血腥、爆力、兇殘，讓人害怕，膽懼。 惹不起，講不得，那躲可以吧，避也可以吧。 像渾身扎滿仙人掌刺，不讓人靠近，久了，也就沒有人想靠近。 如果說，這股火熱的怒氣，能夠試著轉為正面能量，成為激勵心智的動力，那也就不浪費這次被老天安排的”跨坎的試煉”。 只是，有時難免覺得老天好煩，讓人好生地安穩平靜過日子，不可嗎？ 非得要餵食人生毒藥，然後再評估每個人的自癒能力？ 這分數是要幹嘛呢！ 未來？此世？ 來生？下一世？ 搞不懂。 也不想懂。 果然，我今天的狀態真的是『憤怒』。 現在竟然跟老天叫起板來了。 老天啊！別這個自我情緒的宣洩也要搞個評估與計分，未過與補考，然後造成人間慘兮兮。 福兮？禍兮？禍福相攜，可別搞得慘慘兮兮。 Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot: Anger (57-57) Question: The theme of my future diary on 5/24 Card Drawn: Anger Great! Finally, the last day of the "Future Diary" experiment. A fifty-seven-day Tarot experiment, nearly two months, is coming to an end. Whew! Not a short period. In fifty-seven days, there should be fifty-seven entries, but only fifty were completed. Seven entries were not produced: five due to health or time constraints, and two because the Tarot cards drawn didn't connect with the day's events, leaving me unsure how to proceed, so I left them blank. Among the fifty completed entries, two had Tarot cards that didn't correspond to the actual diary, and after some thought, I decided not to record them. Ideally, I should have written them down to make the experiment more comprehensive, but I was too busy, too tired, and sleep-deprived. The record of this experiment needs adjustment and refinement. Sometimes, it's not about not considering everything thoroughly during planning but lacking enough experience. Some items that needed to be recorded were overlooked. Only when organizing and reviewing the data now do I realize the records are incomplete and insufficiently detailed. It's a bit regrettable. But there's no more to add. For the final day of the experiment theme, drawing the Tarot card "Anger" is not a pleasant ending. Turning the corner in my thoughts, today is just one of the three hundred sixty-five days in a year, not particularly special. It's one of the nearly eighteen thousand days of my life so far, not unusual. Since it's not a beautiful ending, it doesn't feel as regrettable or worth fussing over. However, it did confirm that many things today were indeed unsmooth, and in retrospect, some emotions did arise. First, the originally scheduled Friday class teacher suddenly resigned, replaced by a new teacher, which was shocking. Then, the new teacher's course content was about software I had already paid for, costing quite a bit. Now, I can use the teacher-shared student access for two months, making me feel like I got scammed out of those two months' fees, leaving me a bit upset. The learning content involved methods I didn't have the time or ability to research. While there were gains, I also struggled with other software aspects I couldn't understand, feeling disappointed in myself. Asking the teaching assistant for help on some issues, only to be brushed off, made me think of the time he mentioned previous students complaining about his work attitude. Comparing it to his behavior today, I suddenly felt he wasn't wrongly accused. For such situations, since I'm neither his colleague nor superior, I can't judge or speculate, just feel it's a pity. Fate needs to be complete. Before completeness, am I sowing goodwill or resentment? What I plant now will bear fruit in the future. According to the law of attraction, I fear future disputes and conflicts may arise, leading to endless issues. These principles of conduct and work are hard to articulate. The light can't be lit, and words can't be said plainly. The way is to understand it oneself, the pain lies in misunderstanding it. The dinner I wanted wasn't open today, a small disappointment. Randomly chose a barbecue place, ordered a few items, only to find it cost an entire day's meal budget, feeling I can't manage a household, deeply frustrated. With age, the days of great anger and loud scolding are gone. Besides not wanting to in my heart, my health doesn't allow for such highs and lows of stimulation. At most, a slight chest congestion. Once it's over, it's done. Because I know "Anger" ~ Anger is as fragile as a glass; a slight bump shatters it. Anger makes me like a dragon spewing flames, eyes bloodshot, feeling bloody, violent, ferocious, making people fearful and apprehensive. Unapproachable, unspeakable, can only avoid and evade. Like a cactus covered in spikes, preventing closeness, over time, no one wants to approach. If this burning anger can be transformed into positive energy, becoming a motivational force, then it wouldn't waste this "crossing the threshold" trial arranged by heaven. But sometimes, it's hard not to feel heaven is annoying, can't people live a peaceful life? Must we be fed life's poison, then evaluated on each person's healing ability? What's the point of these scores! Future? This life? Next life? The following life? Can't understand. Don't want to understand. Indeed, my state today is "Anger." Now I'm even arguing with heaven. Oh heavens! Don't evaluate and score even this emotional outburst, causing misery in human life. Blessing? Curse? Blessings and curses come hand in hand; don't let it turn into a miserable situation. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Anger

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57) 問題：我4/12的未來日記主題 抽牌：慈悲 Compassion 今天要聊的是「慈悲」這張塔羅牌。 且主題是「死亡」裡的慈悲。 「死亡」這張牌並不是厄運的訊息，也不是大難來臨前的警告。 這張塔羅牌是在說，是時候要將過去老舊的匠氣丟棄掉。 何謂”過去”，想當然爾，就是說不是現在，更不用考量會與未來有關。 已踏上新的路程，選擇新的生活，過去的一些習慣，思維，還有技能，有可能都已成沉痾而不自知，卻還當寶貝珍惜著。 該醒醒囉！！ https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/146479027 「死亡」這張塔羅牌，我覺得還有大刀闊斧的意思，該斷得趕緊斷，該換得趕快換，該捨得的，就別再捨不得。 沒有將累贅放掉，卸掉，要如何前進。 沒有卸掉的，無用的舊包裹，只會拖住前進的腳程。 猶豫，從來就都不是個好態度。 趁早，還有趕上的機會，趕緊醒醒吧！ 我參加了完全不懂，沒接觸過的課程訓練。 每天都很吃力，我樂此不疲。 這是我在經歷我的「死亡」階段。 今天凌晨告知大家今日的集體塔羅牌是「大師」。 那時我是想不通的，現在我是沒有太多機會跟別人接觸的，哪有什麼時候可分享經驗呢。 結果事情的真相很讓我意外，也讓人開心。 原來，今天沒有成為「大師」的我，是那個享受被「大師」指導的學習者。 這是豐盈的果實。 是過往的善意積累的回饋。 這次學習的課程，我一直都很緊張，尤其是今天的電腦平面插畫學習，我一直用不好，老是找不到老師剛剛才講解過的樞紐，且電腦還因我過於急躁猛按滑鼠，直接當機，我原本就已經跟不上腳步了，現在被自己搞成直接休息，只能傻眼瞪著電腦螢幕。 經過觀察和注意，今天，我應是那個班級舉手跟老師求救最多次的學生了。 實在是詢問太多次了，後來我不好意思再請教老師了。 於是，轉過頭，請教坐在後面的同學。 哇！是一個年輕，清秀的男孩子。 前幾天的下課時間，他都是趴在桌上休息，都沒機會看他長的模樣呢。 我用誠懇的眼光請教著。 年輕人走到我位置幫我看電腦螢幕，然後告訴我問題點。 我第一次的電腦插畫，畫得真的是不好看，可是這位年輕人，很親切，很友善，很有愛心。 他很真誠地同意了我所說的，我的畫，真的有點奇怪。 然後鼓勵我，多加練習，會越來越好。 直到今天下課時，我問了後面同學好多次。 甚至在有一點點小小進步時，很開心地趕快轉頭跟他說。 很可愛的年輕人，竟然握起拳頭跟我說，太棒了！做得好！ 然後為我鼓掌，替我開心。 這孩子，真的是很溫柔呀。 我真摯回應說，現在的年輕孩子都像你這樣，說話很懂得鼓勵人，且好正向呀！ 他害羞得微笑了。 今天，我想應該不只是今天，應該說從今天開始，我像是擁有自己的小老師那般有人可以依賴。 今天晚上要喝杯啤酒，讓自己心情放鬆一下，也慶祝這週學習有點進步的成果，還有日後有人可以幫忙的幸福。開心呀！ 宇宙呀！ 塔羅呀！ 不僅知道會發生甚麼事情，甚至連心情要如何轉折都知道。 「未來日記」的塔羅紀錄，我都是晚上要寫當天發生的事情時才去翻看之前插牌記錄的筆記。 關於「未來日記」的當天早上或前一天晚上（若我有記得要先描繪日記想要如何寫的這件事情），這時我都是在腦海裡思考當天的預計行程，但只有寫在行事曆上面的事情才會去事先想像，學習、上課，這類事情，在我的觀念裡是日常，比較不會特別去思考和設想。 昨天發生讓人不愉快的事情，今天也就會有後續事情發展。 放過自己，是當陷入不開心的事情時要先做好的事情。 請記得 ~ 先照顧好自己的需求與情緒，不是自私的行為。 我們得先自己有能力，得有好情緒，好態度和健康的身體，才有機會付出。 否則，反而造成家人和旁人的麻煩及負擔。 今天早上，昨天用粗魯態度對待我的人前來解釋，但並非道歉。 我只說，多提醒的話語是我和朋友間都會做出的關心。 她還想說明，但我不想再聽了。 我沒有忘記昨天她的惡質態度，可也直接表達昨日被她那樣無禮對待後的我，生氣和不舒服。 我沒打算原諒，也沒想要再繼續糾結這事情。 遠離，就好。 我沒有惡面相向，但也不想勉強自己說〝沒關係＂之類的話，反過來安慰對方。 她道歉，是她該做的。 接受與否，是我自己可以選擇的。 有時候，就是有人很討厭的會說，＂對方都道歉了，且是小事，幹嘛還抓著不放？＂ 這真的是奇怪的論點。 ＂道歉＂是萬能的免死金牌嗎？ 道歉，是做錯事情的人要回應給受害者的基本禮貌，但並非道德綁架的工具。 她並非跟我熟識的人，我為何需要承擔她的愚蠢行為和事後解釋呢。 我認為我沒有以其人之道還其人之深，已是我對她的「慈悲」。 且，我也不想委屈自己，因此我認為不接受她的解釋是我對自己的「慈悲」。 Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot: Compassion (15-57) Question: Theme of my journal entry on 4/12 Card drawn: Compassion Today's discussion is centered around the Tarot card "Compassion," within the theme of "Death." The "Death" card doesn't signal doom or warn of impending disaster. It suggests it's time to discard outdated attitudes. By "past," it means not the present, let alone the future. Having embarked on a new journey, choosing a new life, some old habits, thoughts, and skills may have become stagnant, yet still cherished. It's time to wake up! I interpret the "Death" card as a call to make bold changes, to cut ties where needed, to let go of what no longer serves us. Holding onto burdens only hinders progress. Hesitation has never been a good attitude. It's time to wake up while there's still a chance! I enrolled in a completely unfamiliar training course. Every day has been challenging, yet I find joy in it. This is my "death" phase. Early this morning, I shared with everyone that today's collective Tarot card is "Master." At the time, I couldn't grasp its relevance, considering I have limited interaction with others these days. But the truth turned out unexpectedly delightful. Today, I, who didn't become "The Hierophant," found myself enjoying being guided by one. It's a rich harvest, a reward for past kindness. Throughout this course, I've been anxious, especially during today's lesson on computer graphic design. I struggled to follow along, often unable to locate what the instructor just explained. Then, my impatience led to a computer crash. I was already falling behind, and now I was stuck, staring at a blank screen. Observing closely, I realized I was the student who raised their hand the most for help. Eventually, I felt too embarrassed to ask the teacher again. So, I turned to the student behind me. Wow! He was a young, handsome guy. In previous days, he always seemed tired during breaks, and I never really got a good look at him. I asked him earnestly for help. He came over, looked at my screen, and pointed out the issue. My first attempt at computer art wasn't great, but this young man was kind, friendly, and compassionate. He agreed my drawing looked a bit odd but encouraged me to practice more, assuring me I'd improve. By the end of today's class, I had asked the student behind me for help countless times. Even when I made a tiny bit of progress, I eagerly turned to him to share. He was adorable, fist-bumping me, saying, "Great job!" and applauding me, genuinely happy for my improvement. What a gentle soul. I replied sincerely that young people like him nowadays are so good at encouraging others and being positive. He smiled shyly. Today, and perhaps from now on, I feel like I have my own little teacher to rely on. Tonight, I'll have a beer to relax, celebrating the progress I've made this week and the happiness of having someone to help in the future. How joyful! Universe! Tarot! Not only do you know what will happen, but you also predict how emotions will shift. I usually review my Tarot notes in the evening when writing about the day's events for my "Future Diary." In the morning or the night before (if I remember to plan my diary entry), I think about the day's schedule, but I only imagine things already written in my calendar. Learning, attending classes—these are part of my routine, so I don't usually dwell on them. Unpleasant events from yesterday will likely have consequences today. Being kind to oneself is essential when feeling unhappy. Remember—taking care of your needs and emotions isn't selfish. We must be capable, emotionally stable, and healthy ourselves before helping others. Otherwise, we'll only burden our family and others. This morning, the person who treated me rudely yesterday came to explain, not apologize. I simply mentioned that reminders like hers are a form of concern I share with friends. She wanted to explain further, but I didn't want to hear it. I haven't forgotten her disrespectful behavior from yesterday, nor have I concealed my anger and discomfort from being treated that way. I don't intend to forgive or dwell on it further. Moving on is best. I won't pretend it's okay or force myself to comfort her. Apologizing is her obligation. Accepting it is my choice. Sometimes, people might say, "She apologized, and it's a minor issue, why hold onto it?" That's a strange argument. Is an apology a cure-all? Apologizing is basic courtesy from someone who's done wrong, not a tool for moral coercion. She isn't someone I know well, so why should I bear the burden of her foolish behavior and subsequent explanations? I believe not retaliating in kind is my "compassion" toward her. And I don't want to feel resentful, so rejecting her explanation is my "compassion" toward myself. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Compassion

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Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57)

Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57)

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57)

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57)

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57)

Alyson’s 4/22 Tarot：更新者 Regenerator (24-57)

Alyson’s 4/22 Tarot：更新者 Regenerator (24-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)