Alyson’s 4/05 Tarot：恐懼 Fear (7-57)

Alyson’s 4/05 Tarot：恐懼 Fear (7-57) 問題：我4/04的未來日記主題 抽牌：恐懼 Fear https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145565419 凌晨聊天過了頭，又搞亂了生理時鐘。 下次真的要有勇氣開口跟對方說，請停止，不要再說下去。 其實，我有說出口，對方像是沒聽到似的，只顧著自己一直說。 我明白，這樣的情況是不好的。 就是因不忍心在知道對方的心情正在撞牆情況，讓對方一人奮鬥著。 心想著，伸手拉人一把，就是在這樣寧靜的夜晚會是關鍵時刻。 畢竟，不能賭注得認為”不需想這麼多，這應該不會成為那個萬一的時刻”。 但若假設，我沒適時伸出手拉住，真成為了那”萬一”呢？ 我的心，會永遠過不了這坎的。 只是，陪了朋友，賠了自己。 這樣的事情，真不能太常發生。 於是今日，就從清晨兩點多才能睡覺的煩雜心情中開啟。 在害怕中，希望發出了芽 在擔憂中，自信閃著亮光 今日的未來日記從午後起了頭。 是要與朋友碰面聚會呀。 在一家一直很想前往的咖啡廳。 在老家附近。 車子啟動的瞬間，耳朵像是突然聽到非常尖銳的聲音，刺痛著，且連續兩次。 上次這樣的痛，心中的念頭一閃而過，我因犯懶，沒認真看待。 造成這輩子的後悔不已。 那是爸爸緊急急診的前一天晚上。 長程通勤多年的我，那晚，好累。 心中想著明日就要跟爸爸一起吃飯，於是發懶得沒回家探望。 再也沒有機會跟爸爸一起待在老家了。 今天又痛，不敢再輕忽。 我需要改變討厭麻煩的個性。 且，我知道是爸爸在我耳邊交待事情，提醒我要注意。 原本是計畫著將車子停放在老家，等聚會結束再進入屋內查巡，看看。 因耳朵痛，就打開大門，馬上就聽到奇怪的聲音。 真的是非常慶幸在聚會前趕緊先查看。 老家魚缸因地震龜裂，魚缸的水流了滿地。 裡面的魚，倒在淺淺的水哩，正在掙扎著呼吸。 趕緊打電話給家人，問，這要怎麼處理。 地震是能量的傳出，這是自然之道，避免不了。 老天把危險降到了最小，且也安排了一切。 因昨天我有先回老家一趟看看地震後有沒有造成損壞，所以有注意到空置的魚缸，今天就剛好可以運用上。 且過去有注意到家人都一直有準備去掉氯氣的水，在魚缸換水時可以使用。 今日，魚，得以繼續悠游，沒事。 我很開心。 沒有因討厭麻煩而忽視了魚的生命。 沒有忽略耳朵痛和心中的聲音，而忽視了隱藏的危機，因馬達一直空轉，若產生火花，後果很難預料會是怎麼樣。 我 ~ 在保守中學會謹慎 在謹慎中思考細心 在細心中實踐體貼 在體貼中發散著愛 學習了塔羅之後，老師提醒著我，在感官中，我的聽覺是最敏感，也是對於宇宙，對與天地萬物的連結，啟蒙最早的。 所以，我能”聽見”。 因聽不懂，故我得懂得”覺察”與”分析、判斷”。 將家裡的事情大約整理，不會有危險後，前往跟朋友約定的地點。 咖啡，濃郁，好喝。 甜點，甜而不膩，好吃。 洗手間，乾淨清爽，好舒服。 因事情都已妥善處理好，放鬆的心，也就更能享受當下與朋友相聚的快樂。 感恩造物主給予的天賦。 感恩靈魂的敏銳與提醒。 「隨風潛入夜，潤物細無聲。」 感恩造物主，爸爸一直與我們同在。 爸爸保護著我們，就像過去那樣。 爸爸，沒有離開。 是啊！每每想到這樣，淚，就流下。 Alyson’s 4/05 Tarot: Fear (7-57) Question: The theme of my journal on 4/04 Card drawn: Fear Staying up too late chatting, once again disrupting my circadian rhythm. Next time, I really need to gather the courage to speak up and say, "Stop, let's not continue this conversation." In truth, I did speak up, but it seemed like the other person didn't hear me and just kept talking. I understand that this situation isn't good. It's because I can't bear to see the other person struggling with their emotions, hitting a wall all by themselves. I think to myself, extending a helping hand might be crucial, especially on such quiet nights. After all, I can't gamble on thinking "I don't need to worry about it, it probably won't become that 'what if' moment." But what if, hypothetically, I don't reach out in time and it does become that "what if"? My heart wouldn't be able to overcome that hurdle. Just accompanying a friend, I've sacrificed myself. Such occurrences really shouldn't happen too often. So today begins with a cluttered mind from finally being able to sleep after 2 in the morning. In fear, hope sprouts. In worry, confidence shines bright. Today's journal about the future starts in the afternoon. It's about meeting up with friends. At a café I've been wanting to visit for a long time. Near my hometown. As the car starts, my ears suddenly perceive a sharp, piercing sound, twice in a row. The last time I felt this pain, a fleeting thought crossed my mind, but I didn't take it seriously. It led to regrets that haunt me till now. It was the night before my dad's emergency hospital visit. After years of commuting, that night, I was exhausted. I thought I'd see him the next day for dinner, so laziness kept me from visiting home. I never got the chance to be with my dad in our hometown again. Today, the pain returns, and I dare not ignore it. I need to change my dislike for trouble. And I know it's my dad reminding me to be cautious. Originally, I planned to park the car at home and inspect it later after the gathering. But due to the ear pain, I arrived home early. Opening the door, I heard a strange sound. I'm truly fortunate that I checked before the gathering. The fish tank at home cracked due to an earthquake, flooding the floor. The fish were lying in shallow water, struggling to breathe. I quickly called family to ask how to handle it. An earthquake is an energy transmission, a part of nature; it can't be avoided. The universe minimized the danger and arranged everything. Because I had visited home after the earthquake yesterday to check for damage, I noticed the empty fish tank, which I could utilize today. And because I had noticed that my family always prepared water with chlorine to replace the fish tank water, I could use it when changing the water today. Today, the fish are able to swim peacefully, unharmed. I'm happy. I didn't neglect the lives of the fish due to my aversion to trouble. I didn't overlook the ear pain and the voice in my heart, thus avoiding a hidden crisis; the motor kept running empty, and if sparks had occurred, the consequences would have been unimaginable. I ~ Learned caution through conservation. Contemplated carefully through caution. Practiced thoughtfulness through carefulness. Radiated love through thoughtfulness. After learning tarot, my teacher reminded me that among my senses, my hearing is the most sensitive and the earliest connection to the universe and all things. So, I could "hear." And if I can't understand, then I must learn to "perceive" and "analyze, judge." After roughly sorting out things at home, ensuring there was no danger, I headed to the meeting place with my friends. The coffee was rich and delicious. The desserts were sweet but not overwhelming, simply delicious. The restroom was clean and refreshing, very comfortable. With everything taken care of, my relaxed mind could fully enjoy the happiness of being with friends in the present moment. Grateful for the talents bestowed by the Creator. Grateful for the sensitivity and reminders of the soul. "Drifting into the night with the wind, nourishing everything silently." Grateful to the Creator, my dad has always been with us. Dad is still protecting us, just like before. Dad hasn't left. Yes! Every time I think of this, tears flow. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Fear

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57) 問題：我5/24的未來日記主題 抽牌：憤怒 Anger 太棒了！總算來到「未來日記」的最後一天。 長達五十七天的塔羅實驗，近兩個月的時間來到尾聲。 呼！ 不算短的時間。 五十七天，應有五十七篇，最後產出五十篇。 沒有產出的七篇，其中有五篇因身體或時間狀況無法寫出，剩餘二篇，塔羅預先抽出的牌卡與當日沒有事項連結，實在不知要如何下筆，因此就空著。 而產出的五十篇中，有二篇，預先抽出的塔羅牌卡與當天的實際日記無法互相呼應，思索後，決定就不進行記錄，其實應該也是要寫下，這樣實驗的過程和紀錄才能夠完整，可實在是太忙了，忙到每天睡眠不足又太疲憊了。 這次實驗表格的紀錄需要再調整，再精進。 有的時候就是這樣，計畫的時候，不是沒有考慮周全，而是經驗值不夠，所以有需要紀錄的項目沒能去設想到，直到現在要整個資料整理、回顧時，才發現，紀錄不夠完整，不夠詳盡。 有點可惜。 可也無法再多著墨什麼。 對於是實驗主題的最後一天來說，今天的塔羅牌『憤怒』，實在不是一個美好的句點。 轉個彎思考，今天，是一年三百六十五天的其中一天，並不特別，是我迄今歲數近一萬八千天的其中一天，並不稀奇。 不是美好的句點，感覺也就沒有那麼可惜或需要多較真了。 不過，也驗證了今天的很多事情，都是不順利，且現在回想是有一點點情緒產生的。 首先，原本週五課程的老師突然離職，換了一位新老師，是錯愕。 再來，新老師教學內容是我個人已經付費購買的軟體，花了不少錢，現在可以用老師分享的學生權益使用二個月，感覺這兩個月的費用像是被坑了，心情有點不美麗。 學習內容是自己沒有時間，也不會研究的使用方式，有收穫，卻又敗在其他軟體搞不懂的項目裡，好難過，對自己失望了。 請助教老師協助了解一些事情，被打馬虎呼巄過去。對於工作如此不盡心的人，想起前一段時間他說他被以前的學員投訴工作狀態，對照他今日的情況，突然覺得他沒被冤枉。 對這樣的情況，我非他同事或主管，無法評斷也不想臆測，只覺可惜了。 緣分是要俱足。 俱足之前看自己是佈施呢，還是結怨？ 現在栽種的是什麼，日後也就結什麼果。 根據磁石法則來論，以後，只怕會跟他爭論、爭執，進而衍生出爭議的事情，可能會層出不窮。 這做人做事的道理，難言明。 燈不能點亮，話不能說白。 道，貴在自悟，痛在自誤。 想吃的晚餐，今天沒有營業，小難過。 隨意找家燒烤店，簡單點了幾樣，要價竟然是一天的伙食費用，覺得自己真不會持家，挫折不已。 年紀大了，往昔的大怒，大聲責罵，已難再有了。 除了心裡面不想以外，身體狀況也不允許如此高起低跌般的刺激。 頂多就是心口，有點堵，小塞一下。 過了，也就沒事了。 因為知道『憤怒』 ~ 憤怒的情緒就像杯子那般脆弱，稍微大力一碰撞，就裂了，碎了。 憤怒讓自己像是一隻持續噴出火焰的恐龍，眼睛睜紅，感覺血腥、爆力、兇殘，讓人害怕，膽懼。 惹不起，講不得，那躲可以吧，避也可以吧。 像渾身扎滿仙人掌刺，不讓人靠近，久了，也就沒有人想靠近。 如果說，這股火熱的怒氣，能夠試著轉為正面能量，成為激勵心智的動力，那也就不浪費這次被老天安排的”跨坎的試煉”。 只是，有時難免覺得老天好煩，讓人好生地安穩平靜過日子，不可嗎？ 非得要餵食人生毒藥，然後再評估每個人的自癒能力？ 這分數是要幹嘛呢！ 未來？此世？ 來生？下一世？ 搞不懂。 也不想懂。 果然，我今天的狀態真的是『憤怒』。 現在竟然跟老天叫起板來了。 老天啊！別這個自我情緒的宣洩也要搞個評估與計分，未過與補考，然後造成人間慘兮兮。 福兮？禍兮？禍福相攜，可別搞得慘慘兮兮。 Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot: Anger (57-57) Question: The theme of my future diary on 5/24 Card Drawn: Anger Great! Finally, the last day of the "Future Diary" experiment. A fifty-seven-day Tarot experiment, nearly two months, is coming to an end. Whew! Not a short period. In fifty-seven days, there should be fifty-seven entries, but only fifty were completed. Seven entries were not produced: five due to health or time constraints, and two because the Tarot cards drawn didn't connect with the day's events, leaving me unsure how to proceed, so I left them blank. Among the fifty completed entries, two had Tarot cards that didn't correspond to the actual diary, and after some thought, I decided not to record them. Ideally, I should have written them down to make the experiment more comprehensive, but I was too busy, too tired, and sleep-deprived. The record of this experiment needs adjustment and refinement. Sometimes, it's not about not considering everything thoroughly during planning but lacking enough experience. Some items that needed to be recorded were overlooked. Only when organizing and reviewing the data now do I realize the records are incomplete and insufficiently detailed. It's a bit regrettable. But there's no more to add. For the final day of the experiment theme, drawing the Tarot card "Anger" is not a pleasant ending. Turning the corner in my thoughts, today is just one of the three hundred sixty-five days in a year, not particularly special. It's one of the nearly eighteen thousand days of my life so far, not unusual. Since it's not a beautiful ending, it doesn't feel as regrettable or worth fussing over. However, it did confirm that many things today were indeed unsmooth, and in retrospect, some emotions did arise. First, the originally scheduled Friday class teacher suddenly resigned, replaced by a new teacher, which was shocking. Then, the new teacher's course content was about software I had already paid for, costing quite a bit. Now, I can use the teacher-shared student access for two months, making me feel like I got scammed out of those two months' fees, leaving me a bit upset. The learning content involved methods I didn't have the time or ability to research. While there were gains, I also struggled with other software aspects I couldn't understand, feeling disappointed in myself. Asking the teaching assistant for help on some issues, only to be brushed off, made me think of the time he mentioned previous students complaining about his work attitude. Comparing it to his behavior today, I suddenly felt he wasn't wrongly accused. For such situations, since I'm neither his colleague nor superior, I can't judge or speculate, just feel it's a pity. Fate needs to be complete. Before completeness, am I sowing goodwill or resentment? What I plant now will bear fruit in the future. According to the law of attraction, I fear future disputes and conflicts may arise, leading to endless issues. These principles of conduct and work are hard to articulate. The light can't be lit, and words can't be said plainly. The way is to understand it oneself, the pain lies in misunderstanding it. The dinner I wanted wasn't open today, a small disappointment. Randomly chose a barbecue place, ordered a few items, only to find it cost an entire day's meal budget, feeling I can't manage a household, deeply frustrated. With age, the days of great anger and loud scolding are gone. Besides not wanting to in my heart, my health doesn't allow for such highs and lows of stimulation. At most, a slight chest congestion. Once it's over, it's done. Because I know "Anger" ~ Anger is as fragile as a glass; a slight bump shatters it. Anger makes me like a dragon spewing flames, eyes bloodshot, feeling bloody, violent, ferocious, making people fearful and apprehensive. Unapproachable, unspeakable, can only avoid and evade. Like a cactus covered in spikes, preventing closeness, over time, no one wants to approach. If this burning anger can be transformed into positive energy, becoming a motivational force, then it wouldn't waste this "crossing the threshold" trial arranged by heaven. But sometimes, it's hard not to feel heaven is annoying, can't people live a peaceful life? Must we be fed life's poison, then evaluated on each person's healing ability? What's the point of these scores! Future? This life? Next life? The following life? Can't understand. Don't want to understand. Indeed, my state today is "Anger." Now I'm even arguing with heaven. Oh heavens! Don't evaluate and score even this emotional outburst, causing misery in human life. Blessing? Curse? Blessings and curses come hand in hand; don't let it turn into a miserable situation. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Anger

Alyson’s 4/03 Tarot：豐收 Harvest (5-57)

Alyson’s 4/03 Tarot：豐收 Harvest (5-57) 問題：我4/02的未來日記主題 抽牌：豐收 Harvest https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145387285 發現從休息開始至今二年多的時光裡，一直在調整，想找到或建立適合現在的自己。 以前，不怕，因有爸爸。 現在，怕，也得自己處理。 以前，低潮，不怕，有爸爸在。 現在，失落，怕，該怎麼辦？ 去年，我把自己封閉在家。 今年，我把自己推了出門。 去哪？ 去市場。 去操場。 去有人的地方。 這是我自己非常清楚知道的改變。 我的『未來日記』第一階段要先「改變」。 改變與豐收，一個是因，一個是果，然後又互成為對方的因和果。 古代的九個太陽，是種詛咒 現代的九個木星，是種祝福 這張「豐收」的塔羅牌，是讓人想到心情飛揚，若是穿著裙子，就會想轉圈圈的裙擺擺揚，然後，定住，撒花慶祝。 冰箱裡沒有新鮮青菜。 打算今天出門跑一趟。 這市場是去年才開始去的，不熟悉。去過幾次後，也開始慢慢找到自己喜歡的攤子。 固定買青菜的有四攤。 每次都會買一卷潤餅當午餐。 之前軟排骨用得很好吃的那攤已不再。 一開始以為較便宜的水果攤，其實是賣很貴的。 每一次的前往，都是一次次的學習與累積。 每一次的採買，都是豐收，都是改變。 在市場裡，能更感受到季節的交替，天氣的變化。 想吃的，想買的，也有可能會失望，找不到，然後學習調整。 有時，老天會教你如何”改變”。 當辛勞努力之後，宇宙允諾的豐盈 最艱苦的工作已完成，只待收割 對於沒有具體勞動的我，哪來的豐收？ 我自己現在是這樣看得，我的豐收，不一定是物品，不一定是具體，不一定是有形。 我的豐收，在於接觸的人，沾染到他們的歡樂，是喜豐收。 我的豐收，在於流淌的事，沾染到這些的人氣，是喜豐收。 我的豐收，在於穿過的想，沾染到腦袋的思考，是喜豐收。 腳程是很緩慢，但越來越有感。 思考是很雜亂，但越理越明白。 欣賞、讚賞自己辛苦後的成果 為這纍纍結果評個高分 當我不一樣，我就是得更加勇敢。 當我不一樣，我就是得更努力闖盪。 當我不一樣，我就是得失敗後馬上思量。 當我不一樣，我就是得事事掛心上，樣樣學精光。 該看的書一大落，沒能有太多時間在感傷。 我已是枚歐巴桑，落淚也不可能有人為我心傷。 好想學習那位女孩好情商。 好想擁有那位學者好智商。 認知到自己不足的困窘，隨著年紀，隨著閱讀，隨著理解別人的一些模樣，更顯得蒼白無力。 心中有點懊惱，怎以往沒能多學習一些。 還好，現在知道了，也有時間，一點一點再累積。 一位媽媽在她兒子開口撒嬌說，晚餐想吃什麼時，馬上豪氣答應。這位媽媽說她有這樣的經濟能力，且兒子撒嬌想要跟她吃飯，有什麼比這更重要，更幸福的事情。 一位大姐在我們一起買水果的攤子前面跟我分享在那個市場哩，她的採買經驗，哪攤的好吃，哪攤的品質好。這是美好的交流。 今天，內心有許多感想，一項項皆像是收成的果實。 在市場看到的，遇到的笑臉，也是收穫。 這些，不是豐收，是什麼。 Alyson's 4/03 Tarot: Harvest (5-57) Question: Theme of my diary entry on 4/02 Card drawn: Harvest I've found that during the two-plus years since I began resting, I've been adjusting, trying to find or build a version of myself that fits the present. In the past, I wasn't afraid because I had my father. Now, I'm afraid, and I have to deal with it myself. In the past, when I hit a low, I wasn't afraid because my father was there. Now, I feel lost, afraid. What should I do? Last year, I kept myself closed at home. This year, I pushed myself out the door. To where? To the market. To the playground. To places where there are people. This is a change I'm very clear about. The first stage of my "Future Diary" is to "change." Change and harvest, one is the cause, the other is the result, and then they become each other's cause and effect. The nine suns of ancient times were a curse. The nine Jupiters of modern times are a blessing. This "Harvest" tarot card makes one think of exuberant feelings, like twirling in a skirt, and then stopping, throwing flowers to celebrate. There are no fresh vegetables in the fridge. I plan to go out for a run today. I started going to this market just last year, so I'm not familiar with it. After going a few times, I've slowly started to find the stalls I like. There are four stalls where I usually buy vegetables. I always buy a roll of pancakes for lunch. The stall where I used to buy delicious soft ribs is no longer there. I initially thought the fruit stall was cheaper, but it's actually quite expensive. Every trip is a learning experience and accumulation. Every purchase is a harvest, a change. In the market, I can feel the changing seasons, the weather. Things I want to eat, want to buy, may be disappointing, unable to find, and then I learn to adjust. Sometimes, heaven teaches you how to "change." After hard work, the universe promises abundance. The most difficult work has been completed, only waiting to harvest. For me, who hasn't done any physical labor, where does the harvest come from? This is how I see it now: my harvest may not be tangible items. My harvest lies in the people I meet, the joy I share with them, is a harvest of joy. My harvest lies in the things I encounter, the enthusiasm I pass on to others, is a harvest of happiness. My harvest lies in the thoughts I have, the insights I gain, is a harvest of wisdom. The journey is slow, but I feel more and more. The thinking is chaotic, but the clearer it becomes. Appreciating and acknowledging the results of my hard work, Giving high marks to these abundant results. When I'm different, I have to be braver. When I'm different, I have to work harder. When I'm different, I have to reflect immediately after failure. When I'm different, I have to care about everything, learn everything thoroughly. A lot of books to read, not enough time to be sentimental. I'm already a middle-aged woman, there's no one to hurt for me when I cry. I really want to learn from that girl's emotional intelligence. I really want to have the intellect of that scholar. Realizing my own shortcomings, as I grow older, as I read, as I understand others' experiences, it becomes more apparent. There's a bit of regret in my heart, why didn't I learn more in the past. Fortunately, I know now, and there is time, slowly accumulating bit by bit. A mother, when her son sweetly asks what he wants for dinner, immediately agrees. She says she has the emotional ability to do this, and her son's desire to have dinner with her is more important and happier than anything else. An older sister shares her shopping experience with me in front of the fruit stall we're buying from together, telling me which stalls have delicious food and good quality. It's a beautiful exchange. Today, there are many thoughts in my heart, each one seems like the fruit of the harvest. The smiling faces I see in the market are also a harvest. If these aren't harvests, then what are they? #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Harvest

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57) 問題：我4/12的未來日記主題 抽牌：慈悲 Compassion 今天要聊的是「慈悲」這張塔羅牌。 且主題是「死亡」裡的慈悲。 「死亡」這張牌並不是厄運的訊息，也不是大難來臨前的警告。 這張塔羅牌是在說，是時候要將過去老舊的匠氣丟棄掉。 何謂”過去”，想當然爾，就是說不是現在，更不用考量會與未來有關。 已踏上新的路程，選擇新的生活，過去的一些習慣，思維，還有技能，有可能都已成沉痾而不自知，卻還當寶貝珍惜著。 該醒醒囉！！ https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/146479027 「死亡」這張塔羅牌，我覺得還有大刀闊斧的意思，該斷得趕緊斷，該換得趕快換，該捨得的，就別再捨不得。 沒有將累贅放掉，卸掉，要如何前進。 沒有卸掉的，無用的舊包裹，只會拖住前進的腳程。 猶豫，從來就都不是個好態度。 趁早，還有趕上的機會，趕緊醒醒吧！ 我參加了完全不懂，沒接觸過的課程訓練。 每天都很吃力，我樂此不疲。 這是我在經歷我的「死亡」階段。 今天凌晨告知大家今日的集體塔羅牌是「大師」。 那時我是想不通的，現在我是沒有太多機會跟別人接觸的，哪有什麼時候可分享經驗呢。 結果事情的真相很讓我意外，也讓人開心。 原來，今天沒有成為「大師」的我，是那個享受被「大師」指導的學習者。 這是豐盈的果實。 是過往的善意積累的回饋。 這次學習的課程，我一直都很緊張，尤其是今天的電腦平面插畫學習，我一直用不好，老是找不到老師剛剛才講解過的樞紐，且電腦還因我過於急躁猛按滑鼠，直接當機，我原本就已經跟不上腳步了，現在被自己搞成直接休息，只能傻眼瞪著電腦螢幕。 經過觀察和注意，今天，我應是那個班級舉手跟老師求救最多次的學生了。 實在是詢問太多次了，後來我不好意思再請教老師了。 於是，轉過頭，請教坐在後面的同學。 哇！是一個年輕，清秀的男孩子。 前幾天的下課時間，他都是趴在桌上休息，都沒機會看他長的模樣呢。 我用誠懇的眼光請教著。 年輕人走到我位置幫我看電腦螢幕，然後告訴我問題點。 我第一次的電腦插畫，畫得真的是不好看，可是這位年輕人，很親切，很友善，很有愛心。 他很真誠地同意了我所說的，我的畫，真的有點奇怪。 然後鼓勵我，多加練習，會越來越好。 直到今天下課時，我問了後面同學好多次。 甚至在有一點點小小進步時，很開心地趕快轉頭跟他說。 很可愛的年輕人，竟然握起拳頭跟我說，太棒了！做得好！ 然後為我鼓掌，替我開心。 這孩子，真的是很溫柔呀。 我真摯回應說，現在的年輕孩子都像你這樣，說話很懂得鼓勵人，且好正向呀！ 他害羞得微笑了。 今天，我想應該不只是今天，應該說從今天開始，我像是擁有自己的小老師那般有人可以依賴。 今天晚上要喝杯啤酒，讓自己心情放鬆一下，也慶祝這週學習有點進步的成果，還有日後有人可以幫忙的幸福。開心呀！ 宇宙呀！ 塔羅呀！ 不僅知道會發生甚麼事情，甚至連心情要如何轉折都知道。 「未來日記」的塔羅紀錄，我都是晚上要寫當天發生的事情時才去翻看之前插牌記錄的筆記。 關於「未來日記」的當天早上或前一天晚上（若我有記得要先描繪日記想要如何寫的這件事情），這時我都是在腦海裡思考當天的預計行程，但只有寫在行事曆上面的事情才會去事先想像，學習、上課，這類事情，在我的觀念裡是日常，比較不會特別去思考和設想。 昨天發生讓人不愉快的事情，今天也就會有後續事情發展。 放過自己，是當陷入不開心的事情時要先做好的事情。 請記得 ~ 先照顧好自己的需求與情緒，不是自私的行為。 我們得先自己有能力，得有好情緒，好態度和健康的身體，才有機會付出。 否則，反而造成家人和旁人的麻煩及負擔。 今天早上，昨天用粗魯態度對待我的人前來解釋，但並非道歉。 我只說，多提醒的話語是我和朋友間都會做出的關心。 她還想說明，但我不想再聽了。 我沒有忘記昨天她的惡質態度，可也直接表達昨日被她那樣無禮對待後的我，生氣和不舒服。 我沒打算原諒，也沒想要再繼續糾結這事情。 遠離，就好。 我沒有惡面相向，但也不想勉強自己說〝沒關係＂之類的話，反過來安慰對方。 她道歉，是她該做的。 接受與否，是我自己可以選擇的。 有時候，就是有人很討厭的會說，＂對方都道歉了，且是小事，幹嘛還抓著不放？＂ 這真的是奇怪的論點。 ＂道歉＂是萬能的免死金牌嗎？ 道歉，是做錯事情的人要回應給受害者的基本禮貌，但並非道德綁架的工具。 她並非跟我熟識的人，我為何需要承擔她的愚蠢行為和事後解釋呢。 我認為我沒有以其人之道還其人之深，已是我對她的「慈悲」。 且，我也不想委屈自己，因此我認為不接受她的解釋是我對自己的「慈悲」。 Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot: Compassion (15-57) Question: Theme of my journal entry on 4/12 Card drawn: Compassion Today's discussion is centered around the Tarot card "Compassion," within the theme of "Death." The "Death" card doesn't signal doom or warn of impending disaster. It suggests it's time to discard outdated attitudes. By "past," it means not the present, let alone the future. Having embarked on a new journey, choosing a new life, some old habits, thoughts, and skills may have become stagnant, yet still cherished. It's time to wake up! I interpret the "Death" card as a call to make bold changes, to cut ties where needed, to let go of what no longer serves us. Holding onto burdens only hinders progress. Hesitation has never been a good attitude. It's time to wake up while there's still a chance! I enrolled in a completely unfamiliar training course. Every day has been challenging, yet I find joy in it. This is my "death" phase. Early this morning, I shared with everyone that today's collective Tarot card is "Master." At the time, I couldn't grasp its relevance, considering I have limited interaction with others these days. But the truth turned out unexpectedly delightful. Today, I, who didn't become "The Hierophant," found myself enjoying being guided by one. It's a rich harvest, a reward for past kindness. Throughout this course, I've been anxious, especially during today's lesson on computer graphic design. I struggled to follow along, often unable to locate what the instructor just explained. Then, my impatience led to a computer crash. I was already falling behind, and now I was stuck, staring at a blank screen. Observing closely, I realized I was the student who raised their hand the most for help. Eventually, I felt too embarrassed to ask the teacher again. So, I turned to the student behind me. Wow! He was a young, handsome guy. In previous days, he always seemed tired during breaks, and I never really got a good look at him. I asked him earnestly for help. He came over, looked at my screen, and pointed out the issue. My first attempt at computer art wasn't great, but this young man was kind, friendly, and compassionate. He agreed my drawing looked a bit odd but encouraged me to practice more, assuring me I'd improve. By the end of today's class, I had asked the student behind me for help countless times. Even when I made a tiny bit of progress, I eagerly turned to him to share. He was adorable, fist-bumping me, saying, "Great job!" and applauding me, genuinely happy for my improvement. What a gentle soul. I replied sincerely that young people like him nowadays are so good at encouraging others and being positive. He smiled shyly. Today, and perhaps from now on, I feel like I have my own little teacher to rely on. Tonight, I'll have a beer to relax, celebrating the progress I've made this week and the happiness of having someone to help in the future. How joyful! Universe! Tarot! Not only do you know what will happen, but you also predict how emotions will shift. I usually review my Tarot notes in the evening when writing about the day's events for my "Future Diary." In the morning or the night before (if I remember to plan my diary entry), I think about the day's schedule, but I only imagine things already written in my calendar. Learning, attending classes—these are part of my routine, so I don't usually dwell on them. Unpleasant events from yesterday will likely have consequences today. Being kind to oneself is essential when feeling unhappy. Remember—taking care of your needs and emotions isn't selfish. We must be capable, emotionally stable, and healthy ourselves before helping others. Otherwise, we'll only burden our family and others. This morning, the person who treated me rudely yesterday came to explain, not apologize. I simply mentioned that reminders like hers are a form of concern I share with friends. She wanted to explain further, but I didn't want to hear it. I haven't forgotten her disrespectful behavior from yesterday, nor have I concealed my anger and discomfort from being treated that way. I don't intend to forgive or dwell on it further. Moving on is best. I won't pretend it's okay or force myself to comfort her. Apologizing is her obligation. Accepting it is my choice. Sometimes, people might say, "She apologized, and it's a minor issue, why hold onto it?" That's a strange argument. Is an apology a cure-all? Apologizing is basic courtesy from someone who's done wrong, not a tool for moral coercion. She isn't someone I know well, so why should I bear the burden of her foolish behavior and subsequent explanations? I believe not retaliating in kind is my "compassion" toward her. And I don't want to feel resentful, so rejecting her explanation is my "compassion" toward myself. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Compassion

Alyson’s 4/23 Tarot：大師 Master

Alyson’s 4/23 Tarot：大師 Master 問題：沒有太多人看的分享，我還要繼續撰寫並分享每日塔羅嗎？ 抽牌：大師 Master 急著想要分享今日的觸動，想了想，決定『未來日記』今天暫停一次。 看過一位塔羅專家寫的書，他寫道：塔羅是沒有集體意識的，塔羅是屬於一個人的潛意識，一個人的指引。 我學習塔羅的時間還很短，無法回應這個論點。 我想從另一個角度去分享，塔羅，是夢的延伸，是潛意識的呈現。 而關於”夢”，有個人隱私的夢，也有大家共同的夢想、渴望與期盼。 網路文章中看過這樣的一句話：「集體潛意識的內容是天生就會的東西。」那是否我也可以這樣認為，「夢，是每個人天生就會的事情。只是有人會記得夢，有人忘記，有人常有夢，有人夢較少，甚至可能不是他沒有作夢，而是他不記得他有作了夢。」 夢是集體潛意識，塔羅是夢的顯化與指引，藉由共時性現象的時候，將夢境圖書館中的紀錄浮現於意識水面上，照這樣推溯，塔羅，也是可以展示集體潛意識的聚焦。 在人海中，總會有不相識的人，在同一個時間，為著同一個問題或是情思索著。 而我是基於這樣的推論而開始這樣的集體塔羅牌實驗。 每一天，我在不同的時間點抽一張塔羅牌，沒有提問，沒有特別思考或任何思緒，沒有假設也沒有預設。 就是直接呼喊宇宙，請宇宙給有緣的我們一個祝福，抽牌。 就這樣簡單。 為何不在同一個時間抽牌？ 既然是集體，而我也是集體的其中一員。 當我福至心靈想抽牌時，我才抽牌，表示我也有參與在這個集體中，而非是幫”你們這個集體”而抽的塔羅牌。 我將抽出來的塔羅牌，先進行閱讀，就是大家一般稱的「讀牌」。 我想將讀牌的內容內化、聚焦後，寫成短文，再用自己設計的「心情紀錄卡」將重點顯示在卡片上分享給你們。 這樣的作業，在工作日的期間，每天我會進行兩份。一份是上面說明的集體塔羅抽牌，一份是我個人的抽牌。 為了區分不同的塔羅，集體抽牌的心情紀錄卡上會有『DC-Tarot』的字樣，我個人的塔羅抽牌心情紀錄卡上是『Alyson』的字樣。 而這樣重的工作量是我安排給自己的功課。 一來鍛鍊自己的靈性，訓練直覺力，磨練文字表達力與強化與圖案的連結力。 一來是認為”分享”、”付出”是我的生命裡一件很重要的事情。 也許有人會在不經意的時候讀到了我的一句話而引起了共鳴。 也許哪天有人會因我的一個分享而有了觸動。 今日，我的朋友說，我的粉絲真是少得可憐。 而，我還要每天這樣認真寫嗎？這樣努力分享嗎？ 說真的，是很灰心。 就如同，好多影片都請觀看的人給一個小紅心，給個讚。 於是，今天晚上我就抽了塔羅牌，請宇宙指引。 『Sage of Worlds – Master大師』是這次抽到的塔羅牌。 『大師』，顧名思義就是需要有豐富的，並且經年累月累積的經驗後，對這門技藝已是精通，化入骨水，溶入細胞，融入生活中，才能有此稱呼。 宇宙告訴我，這就是我必然、一定得走過的路。 我的每日塔羅，是為自己而撰寫出來的，因我的努力，有所獲得的是我自己，非關他人，非關你們。 有沒有紅心，有沒有點讚的次數，不應該動搖我撰寫每日塔羅的初衷。 宇宙的指引雖然是這樣說，但我還是會想要愛心和點讚數呀！ 平凡人，還是需要有人給予鼓勵、讚賞和交流。 平凡人，還是想要感受到和看到努力有被人看見，並且喜歡著。 『大師』還有著運用現實的生活發展內在的品格，若有所權力、地位或榮譽的獲得，也需保持謙卑、謙虛並分享資源。 而精通技藝的『大師』在他們自己專業的世界裡如魚得水地優遊，持續精進技藝外，內心更是放鬆地享受著傳承與分享的重責大任，並且樂於與其他”大師”交流，甚至共同合作，努力。 §如果今天這篇有觸碰到你的小心窩，請給我一個”讚”或一顆”小紅心”。 Alyson's 4/23 Tarot: Master Question: With not many people viewing my shares, should I continue writing and sharing daily Tarot readings? Card drawn: Emperor Eager to share today's insight, upon reflection, I've decided to pause "Future Diary" for today. I read a book by a Tarot expert once, where he wrote: "Tarot has no collective consciousness; Tarot belongs to an individual's subconscious, a person's guidance." As someone relatively new to Tarot, I can't fully respond to this argument. Instead, I'd like to offer a different perspective: Tarot is an extension of dreams, a manifestation of the subconscious. And concerning "dreams," there are personal, private dreams, as well as collective dreams, desires, and aspirations. I came across a line in an online article: "The content of collective subconsciousness is innate." Could we then say, "Dreams are innate to everyone"? Some remember dreams, some forget; some dream frequently, some less so. It's even possible that someone may not recall dreaming, not because they didn't dream, but because they don't remember doing so. Dreams are part of the collective subconscious, and Tarot is the manifestation and guidance of dreams. Through synchronistic phenomena, records from the dream library emerge into consciousness. Following this line of thought, Tarot can also reveal the focus of the collective subconscious. In the sea of humanity, there are always strangers, at the same time, pondering the same questions or sentiments. Based on this reasoning, I began a collective Tarot card experiment. Every day, at different times, I draw a Tarot card. No questions, no specific thoughts or assumptions. I simply call out to the universe, asking for a blessing for those destined to receive it, and draw a card. It's that simple. Why not draw cards at the same time? Since it's collective, and I am part of that collective. When I genuinely feel the urge to draw a card, I do so. This signifies my participation in the collective, rather than drawing cards for "you guys." I read the drawn Tarot card first, commonly known as "reading the cards." I internalize and focus on the reading, then write a short piece, highlighting the key points on a self-designed "mood card," which I share with you. During weekdays, I do this twice a day. One is the collective Tarot card drawing as explained above, and the other is my personal drawing. To distinguish between different Tarot readings, the mood card for collective Tarot readings will have the label "DC-Tarot," while for my personal readings, it will have "Alyson." This workload is a task I've assigned to myself. Firstly, to nurture my spirituality, hone my intuition, refine my writing skills, and strengthen my connection with symbols. Secondly, because "sharing" and "giving" are essential aspects of my life. Perhaps someone will resonate with a passing sentence of mine. Perhaps someday, someone will be moved by one of my shares. Today, a friend remarked how few followers I have. Do I really need to continue writing so earnestly every day? Is this effort in sharing worth it? To be honest, it's disheartening. It's like when many viewers watch a video but only a few leave a like. So tonight, I drew a Tarot card, seeking guidance from the universe. "The Sage of Worlds – Master" was the card I drew this time. A "master," as the name suggests, requires extensive experience accumulated over the years to truly master the craft, to the point where it becomes ingrained in their being, dissolved into their cells, and integrated into their lives. The universe tells me this is the path I must inevitably tread. My daily Tarot readings are written for myself. The gains from my efforts are for myself, not for others, not for you. The number of likes or hearts should not shake the original intention behind my daily Tarot writings. Although the universe guides me this way, I still yearn for likes and hearts! Ordinary people still need encouragement, appreciation, and interaction. Ordinary people still want to feel and see their efforts acknowledged and appreciated by others. A "master" also utilizes real-life experiences to develop their inner character. If they attain power, status, or honor, they must remain humble, modest, and share resources. True masters in their own professional worlds navigate effortlessly, constantly improving their skills. Internally, they relax, enjoying the weighty responsibility of passing on knowledge and sharing, willingly engaging with other "masters," even collaborating, striving together. §If today's piece has touched a chord in you, please give me a "like" or a "heart." #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Master

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：財富/命運 Fortune (2-57)

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：財富/命運 Fortune (2-57) 問題：我的未來日記第一週第一篇的主題 抽牌：X 財富/命運 Fortune 翻過土的心田，挖到、找到了什麼？ 黃金、鑽石、藏寶箱還是黑石油！ https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145062913 今日實現的小幸運 從那日幫觀世音菩薩慶生後，溫暖一直在我心中湧動。 想告訴大家，我看到了可愛優雅的觀世音菩薩金身。 在我的夢中，從停車場追隨著爸爸的背影，在抵達林口竹林山觀音寺的側門時，爸爸回眸看了看我，轉身，身影隱沒消失在雕龍碧樓的牆面。 爸爸知道我喜歡去竹林山觀音寺，所以他也會去觀音菩薩座前修行。 我是觀世音菩薩的乾女兒。 當觀世音菩薩金身從我面前經過時，瞬間，很想流淚，很想哭。 所以我好想跟大家說一說，我的感動，我的感觸，我的感傷。 前幾週獲得到一位朋友已離開近一年的消息。 我沉入了悲傷。 不捨、難過、不懂、難懂。 他，優秀又年輕，很不捨。 他，是可以聊聊天的朋友，很難過。 為何是他，不懂。 為何我覺得不應該是他，難懂。 因為這失落，想到了其他好久沒消息的朋友們。 大家好嗎？ 早上才想著要列張時間表，一一問候。 傍晚就有位朋友傳來訊息，「你有空嗎？」 馬上回應，「有。」「怎麼了？」 朋友說，「見面？」 很快應答，「沒問題。」換裝，馬上出發。 吃了晚餐，聊了許多話。 喝杯咖啡，說著彼此旅遊美麗的繁華。 春天的夜晚，迷人。 風，輕輕地吹。 花，幽然綻放。 香，沉秘優雅。 今日抽牌：財富/命運 Fortune 黃金手，握住了所有，繁華興盛皆在掌中 鋼鐵的意志，鑽石的璀璨，皇冠般的尊榮 命運之輪一直在轉動，命運？運命？ 黑財神在座上，鑽石灑滿在地上，財富紛紛朝你湧上來。 木星落背上，資源與機會如雙磁力，創造及成果是具體。 曾看過分享富人如何教育小孩的文章。 其中有一部分是寫〝食物〞。 關於〝食物〞需要學習什麼？ 當令的新鮮，當地的美味。 還有嗎？ 原來，富人教導孩子如何品嚐人間美味，並告知，若想要常有機會享受這類美食，努力，學習，認真與付出都是基本的。 富人運用享受美好的事情當作孩子學習的動能。 而一般家庭的思考有可能是，怕一旦孩子吃過了美食，就無法再吃平時的粗茶淡飯。 思維不同，影響與成就也就不同。 唯有打開視野，拉高眼界，孩子才更能體認，天外還有天的遼闊，人外還有人的謙遜。 於是，目標如何設定，也就很重要。 所設的目標太高，不切實際，但設得平庸，又毫無興趣。 如何設定目標，這也是一項學習。 原本以為的簡單，其實一點都不簡單。 我們的思維是不是要改變。 盡己之力去拚搏，明知險境亦不畏虎 嘿！知道自己到底在追尋什麼嗎？ 契機已來到，如何運用？怎麼用？ 我們看著鬥牛士的勇猛，要如何學習鬥牛士的智慧與敏捷？ 鬥牛，如此高風險的工作，為何依然有人願意且熱愛這樣的工作？ 我們知道了什麼？ 我們又懂了什麼？ 「財富如糞土，仁義值千金。」 「舜視棄天下，猶棄敝屣也。」 你視為珍寶，他人未必？ 他人喜歡的重中之重，你則不然。 為何？ 有人求仁。 有人求名。 有人求財。 有人求平安。 財富，可是有形，可為無形。 財富，又豈止是指金銀財寶，千金白銀如此簡單。 歲歲年年，曾經苦苦追求的，也會有所改變。 人間清醒，無懼迷茫。 Alyson's 3/31 Tarot: Fortune (2-57) Question: Theme of the first week's first entry in my future diary Card drawn: Fortune What did I unearth, dig up, find after turning over the soil of my heart? Gold, diamonds, a treasure chest, or black crude oil! Today's realized small fortune: Ever since the celebration for Guanyin Bodhisattva's birthday that day, warmth has been surging in my heart. I want to tell everyone, I saw the adorable and graceful golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva. In my dream, I followed my father's figure from the parking lot, and when we reached the side gate of Guanyin Temple in Linkou Zhulin Mountain, my father glanced back at me, turned around, and his figure disappeared into the wall of the carved dragon pavilion. My father knew I liked to go to Guanyin Temple in Zhulin Mountain, so he would also go there to practice in front of Guanyin Bodhisattva. I am the adopted daughter of Guanyin Bodhisattva. When the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva passed by me, I felt like crying instantly, so I really want to share with everyone my emotions, my feelings, my sadness. A few weeks ago, I received news that a friend had been gone for nearly a year. I sank into sadness. Unwillingness, sadness, incomprehension, difficulty in understanding. He, outstanding and young, I am unwilling. He was a friend I could chat with, I am sad. Why him, I don't understand. Why do I feel it shouldn't be him, hard to understand. Because of this loss, I thought of other friends I hadn't heard from in a long time. How is everyone? I just thought this morning about making a schedule to greet each one. In the evening, a friend sent a message, "Are you free?" I responded immediately, "Yes." "What's up?" The friend said, "Wanna meet?" I quickly replied, "No problem." Changed clothes and headed out immediately. Had dinner, talked a lot. Had a cup of coffee, talking about our beautiful past travels. Spring nights are charming. The wind blows gently. Flowers bloom quietly. Fragrance, deep and elegant. Today's drawn card: Fortune The golden hand holds everything, prosperity and glory are in hand. The will of steel, the brilliance of diamonds, the honor like a crown. The wheel of fortune keeps turning, fortune? Destiny? The God of Wealth is seated, diamonds scattered on the ground, wealth pouring towards you. Jupiter falls on your back, resources and opportunities like dual magnets, creating and achieving are tangible. I once read an article about how rich people educate their children. Part of it is about "food." What should you learn about "food"? Freshness of the season, local delicacies. Anything else? It turns out that wealthy people teach their children how to taste the delicacies of the world, and they tell them that effort, learning, seriousness, and dedication are all basic if they want to have the opportunity to enjoy such food frequently. Wealthy people use enjoying good things as an incentive for children to learn. The thinking of ordinary families may be that once children have tasted delicacies, they won't be satisfied with plain food anymore. Different thinking leads to different influences and achievements. Only by broadening your horizons can children truly understand the vastness of the world beyond, and the humility of humanity beyond. So, how to set goals is also important. If the goals set are too high, unrealistic, but set too mediocre, there is no interest. How to set goals is also a learning process. What was originally thought to be simple is actually not simple at all. Do we need to change our way of thinking? Do your best to strive, knowing the danger yet fearing no tiger. Hey! Do you know exactly what you're pursuing? The opportunity has come, how to use it? How? We watch the bravery of the matador, how to learn the wisdom and agility of the matador? Bullfighting, such a high-risk job, why are there still people willing to do it and love it? What have we learned? What do we understand? "Wealth is like dung, goodness is worth more than gold." "Shun regarded the world as abandoned, as if he had abandoned old shoes." What you regard as treasures, others may not? What others prioritize may not be the same for you. Why is that? Some seek kindness. Some seek fame. Some seek wealth. Some seek peace. Wealth, tangible and intangible. Wealth, not just referring to gold and silver treasures, simplicity can be worth its weight in gold. Year after year, what we once pursued may change. Awake in the world, unafraid of confusion. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Change

2024 0426 今日塔羅：慈悲 Compassion

2024 0426 今日塔羅：慈悲 Compassion 你是嚴格對待自己的人嗎？ 你是嚴肅要求他人的人嗎？ 你是凡事都認真看待的人嗎？ 你是每句話都在心裡牢牢記著的人嗎？ 當你沒達到自己設定的目標時，你有什麼感受？第一個冒出來的心情是哪一種？是否會分析失敗的原因？這樣的失敗又讓你如何看待自己？ 生自己的氣？ 對自己感到失望？ 當這麼多的負面情緒與想法在腦袋裡亂竄的時候，是否曾有過一絲絲的溫柔閃過？是否曾有想告訴自己一些體己話，「你做得很棒」，「你已盡了最大的努力」。 慈悲，我們會給予長者，給予弱者，給予父母，給予小孩，給予朋友。 慈悲，我們最常忘記給予自己。 在過去拼命的工作生涯中，當有臨時狀況發生的時候，我常會苛責自己，覺得自己能力太差，思慮粗糙，沒有事先設想好可能會發生的所有情況。 於是，在每次的專案活動結束後，我總是將剛結束的相關資料再翻閱一次，並將下次可注意的事情寫完整。 然後，在電腦資料夾裡預設一個下次類似專案的資料夾，裡面存放著我現在對於未來一年後類似活動的預設計劃草稿。 可能就是因為如此在那幾年裡我的身體每半年崩垮掉一次，每次需長達一週以上的時間才能慢慢恢復。 這幾天的身體和心理狀況，很是糟糕，無法進食，連藥粉或者是藥水，身體都會自主排斥的無法吞嚥，還會因過度抗拒而吐，體力更是無法支撐，只能昏睡。 多年後，我放過自己，離開了那個高壓的工作環境。 之前的嚴重內耗，身體反撲得厲害。 需付出的代價，直到今日仍未還清。 苦不堪言，也只能自己承受。 這真是自作虐，就難活的清爽自在。 看著身邊的朋友們，好多人對自己的要求始終都很高。 小說寫著霸道總裁總是很高、很帥、很冷漠，不管是哪項都是”很”這個最高等級。 現實生活中，在職場上，靠著自己拚到一個位置的人，都是很認真、很賣命、很勞碌，也是哪項都是”很”這個等級。 還會被要求高情商、高度協調、高度配合、高度抗壓、高度耐操。 看著社會上那麼多人拚著命，賣著健康的努力，也沒什麼事發生，自己也會是那個幸運兒吧。 可，誰又能保證誰不會是那個”萬中選一”的呢？ 在你的心中，你認為「慈悲」是什麼？ 你如何看待「慈悲」？ 在悲傷的時刻，還能惦記到別人的好，這是共情，是體貼，也是一種慈悲。 倘若在憤怒之際，怒火要噴天時，突然想到對方過去的貼心和彼此間曾有過的笑容，瞬間冷靜下來了，我覺這是一種對他人和對自己的慈悲。 我覺得若眼前的人是曾經欺侮過你，辜負過你的人，懇求你的協助和放下昔日的糾葛，而你，放下了，也放過了，這不只是慈悲；若用這幾年的網路小說用詞，這是聖母神佛層級的大愛，我自認為做不到。 領航者塔羅對於『慈悲』這張牌是這樣認為的 ~ 在愛的世界裡，你是善於為愛注入溫暖和祥和能量的，有你在的場子，大家都會感受到和樂和喜悅。 總是有強大的共情力和同理心，在你的心中及懷抱裡，總是有更多的諒解與更多的寬容。 慈悲有著一隻黃金佛手印，這手印賦予著抽到牌的人，運用慈愛、療癒力及安定力量，去協助與療癒跟你請求指引的人。 因為心懷慈悲，心胸寬大，財運總是會跟隨著善良的人。 財富，範圍不是只有金錢與俗稱的財產，還有許多非具體或實際的。 常有機緣與陌生之人有場愉快的邂垢，就是一種美好的財富。 佛教認為「慈悲」是複合詞，由四無量心的「慈」與「悲」合成，其意義相近。 在網路上看到一位佛教宗師對於「慈悲」的講解，與我內心的以為很是貼近。 「慈悲，原是佛教用語，拆開來看，「慈」是把快樂給人，「悲」是拔一切眾生苦。眾生有苦，我們幫助他解決，帶給他快樂，這個心就叫「慈悲心」。金菩提宗師教導大家：「真正的慈悲就是特別的愛，就像母親呵護孩子一樣的精神特質，包含關懷、包容、真誠、愛心，還有一顆善解人意之心。」慈悲所產生的愛是非常廣博的，他對所有生命都心懷慈悲，從自然界中的山川、河流、鮮花、動物，到任何需要幫助的人，都具有一種憐憫、慈悲之心。」 基督教 「慈悲是讓一個人得到比他應得的還更寬容的對待。 透過耶穌基督的贖罪，才可能有慈悲。 我們的天父知道我們有弱點和罪。 祂寬恕我們的罪，幫助我們回去與祂同住，這就是慈悲的表現。」 不管是哪一種信仰，或是沒有任何信仰。 我覺「慈悲」，是從小我，小愛出發，懂得愛自己的人，不須提醒，自然能夠覺察到別人的用心和難處，會因理解、體諒而溫柔。 慈悲就如同”善”，像漣漪一圈一圈擴散了出去，永不停歇。 資料來源：金菩提宗師 https://www.jinbodhi.org/79729/ Today's Tarot: Compassion Are you someone who holds yourself to strict standards? Are you demanding of others? Do you take everything seriously? Do you hold onto every word spoken? When you don't reach your set goals, how do you feel? What's the first emotion that surfaces? Do you analyze the reasons for failure? How does such failure make you see yourself? Do you get angry with yourself? Do you feel disappointed? Amidst the chaos of so many negative emotions and thoughts swirling in your mind, have you ever felt a hint of tenderness? Have you ever wanted to tell yourself some comforting words like "You did great" or "You've done your best"? Compassion, we give it to elders, to the weak, to parents, to children, to friends. Compassion, the one we often forget to give to ourselves. During my years of relentless work, whenever unexpected situations arose, I often blamed myself, feeling inadequate and poorly prepared, failing to anticipate all possible scenarios. So, after every project, I would review the relevant materials and jot down things to pay attention to next time. Then, I would create a folder in my computer for similar future projects, storing drafts of plans for activities similar to what I had just finished. Perhaps because of this, my body collapsed every six months during those years, taking over a week each time to slowly recover. These past few days, my physical and mental condition has been terrible, unable to eat, unable to swallow even powdered medicine or liquid without my body rejecting it, even vomiting due to excessive resistance, and my strength unable to sustain me, only able to fall into a deep sleep. Years later, I forgave myself and left that high-pressure work environment. The severe internal strain from before led to a strong backlash from my body. The price to pay, still not fully settled until today. It's unbearable, but I have to endure it myself. It's truly self-inflicted suffering, making it difficult to live comfortably and freely. Looking at my friends around me, so many of them have high demands on themselves. Novels depict dominant CEOs as tall, handsome, and aloof, everything being "very" to the highest degree. In real life, those who rise through the ranks in the workplace through their own efforts are very serious, hardworking, and diligent, also embodying "very" in every aspect. They are also expected to have high emotional intelligence, high coordination ability, high cooperation, high resistance to pressure, and high endurance. Seeing so many people in society striving and sacrificing their health without much happening, could I also be one of the lucky ones? But who can guarantee that one won't be the "one in a million"? In your heart, what do you think "compassion" is? How do you view "compassion"? In moments of sadness, being able to remember the good in others is empathy, thoughtfulness, and also a form of compassion. If in anger, when the flames are about to erupt, suddenly remembering the intimacy of the past and the smiles shared, instantly calming down, I think this is a form of compassion for both others and oneself. If the person in front of you is someone who has once mistreated you, disappointed you, and now seeks your help and forgiveness, and you, being able to let go and forgive, this is not just compassion; in terms of the internet novels of recent years, this is a level of great love akin to a saint or a deity, something I believe I couldn't achieve. According to the Navigator Tarot, this card "Compassion" is seen as follows ~ In the world of love, you are adept at infusing warmth and peaceful energy into love. Wherever you are, everyone will feel joy and happiness. You always possess strong empathy and compassion. In your heart and arms, there is always more understanding and tolerance. Compassion bears a golden Buddha's palm imprint. This imprint endows the one drawing the card with the ability to use love, healing, and stabilizing power to assist and heal those who seek guidance from you. Because of compassion and generosity, wealth always follows the kind-hearted. Wealth, its scope is not limited to just money and material possessions, there are also many intangible or abstract forms. There are often opportunities to have pleasant encounters with strangers, which is a kind of beautiful wealth. In Buddhism, "compassion" is a compound word, composed of the "loving-kindness" (maitri) and "compassion" (karuna) of the Four Immeasurables, with similar meanings. I saw an explanation of "compassion" by a Buddhist master on the internet, which resonated deeply with my inner thoughts. He said: "Compassion, originally a Buddhist term, when broken down, 'loving-kindness' is giving happiness to others, and 'compassion' is alleviating the suffering of all beings. When beings suffer, we help them solve their problems and bring them happiness. This heart is called 'compassionate.' Master Jin Bodhi teaches us: 'True compassion is a special kind of love, like the spirit of a mother caring for her child, including caring, tolerance, sincerity, love, and understanding of others.' The love generated by compassion is very extensive, with compassion for all life, from the mountains and rivers of the natural world, to flowers, animals, and any people in need, having a heart of compassion and mercy." In Christianity, "Compassion" is treating someone more leniently than they deserve. Compassion is only possible through the atonement of Jesus Christ. Our Father knows our weaknesses and sins. He forgives our sins and helps us return to dwell with Him, which is the expression of compassion. Regardless of the faith, or lack thereof, I believe "compassion" starts from loving oneself and understanding oneself, without needing reminders, naturally able to perceive others' intentions and difficulties, responding with gentleness due to understanding and empathy. Compassion is like "goodness," spreading out like ripples, never ceasing. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Compassion

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57) 問題：我4/05的未來日記主題 抽牌：滋養 孕育 Nurturing 今天早晨自然清醒後的第一個思緒是，今天是幾月幾號？現在是幾點？ 第二個思緒是，我今天到底有什麼事情嗎？ 我的生活早已沒了工作日或休假日的差別。 除非有特地安排事情，只有在寫每日塔羅牌時，會因每日抽到的牌卡不同而需要思考不同主旨的書寫，不然每一天都像是複製日，沒有太大差別。 對於今天的「未來日記」，說真的，我沒有任何的頭緒。 在家的時光，通常沒有特別的事情，要如何用”過去式”去寫今日的日記呢。 可不積極找事情，就會開天窗。 我猶豫不已。 午後，朋友群組裡有朋友說想進行塔羅讀牌。 哇！這是昨晚的心想事成嗎？ https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145655725 昨天晚上我有想到，如果塔羅讀牌可以開張，也許有機會啟動我這方面的事業。 雖然我完全不積極，且也沒有計畫何時開始，如何開始，怎麼開始自己的事業。 過去幾個月，就是嘴巴喊喊，每天抽塔羅牌，閱讀塔羅牌，設計心情紀錄卡，寫讀牌和衍伸的想法。 有時候我們面臨膠著的，不知還能怎麼努力才能打破僵局時，就會盼望著有股外力來個衝擊。 最好是往正向扯過去的拉力，這樣就能啟動磁場開始轉動。 機會滾輪就也開始運轉，好機會就會來降臨。 “滋養/孕育”是很深奧又美好的涵義。 今日”善的種子”種植下去，有些會經過刻意的培育或給予滋養，有些就是自然地不刻意耕耘，我們無法預料哪日會以什麼形式，在哪裡收成。 我總警惕自己別犯錯，別對不住人，別欺負人。 過去在我腦袋空乏的時候，曾被多人鄙棄，瞧不起，認為我是寄生蟲，只會依賴著他們。 其實，我並沒有想太多。 那時的我認為因那些事情我不擅長，也不懂，不要給予過多意見和想法。 有人願意主導，有人負責協助，無法幫忙的人就是跟隨。 我從來未曾預料到一開始說好願意讓我跟隨的話語，只是說說而已。 我的”無意見跟隨”，造成別人的累贅，可那時的我是不知悉的。 我後來知道原來那是客氣的語言，這就又是我不懂的另一個層面。 朋友間，喜不喜歡，要不要，肯不肯，直說無妨，何須繞這麼多彎。 加上那幾年的我沒有心思和心力注意。 讓人不喜歡了，自己都不知道。 唉！何苦如此。 從那以後，這塊友誼田地，我就沒再積極培育和經營。 因為我深深得明白，一片土壤裡滿是玻璃、石頭、碎石和垃圾，是無法培養出好事情。 需要磨合的不是只有愛情，友情不也是需要。 人的心力就只有哪樣多。 人的一生有多綿長？ 這種時候就是要聰明一些，將心力和愛澆灌在會有回饋你的土地上。 就如同農夫，在種植前，會先評估過那片土地是否肥沃，是否合適。 弱水三千，只取一瓢。 要讓你的愛，獨特一點。 偏愛，很可愛。 交付錯了心，那就趕緊停損，止損。 別被不甘心、不甘願給迷惘傷痕累累的靈魂。 寧願自己抱頭痛哭，也不要自我作賤，貶低自己如塵埃。 我們的滋養。 我們的孕育。 我們的心意。 我的的愛情。 只灌溉在兩相奔赴的關係裡。 沒有什麼是無悔。 沒有什麼是無怨。 寫到這裡，可以確定的是與「未來日記」完全離題。 可，與今日塔羅「滋養/孕育」有著直接關係。 回歸正題。 我今日，若有發生美好的事情，那是過去花費心思滋養孕育的因。 我這一世，這種時候可以多些任性，也許是我累積好多世修習，孕育後得來的果。 當我們羨慕時，可想想，自己曾付出過什麼。 當我們埋怨時，也想想，自己可曾付出過什麼。 當我們被羨慕時，再想想，自己曾付出過什麼。 當我們被嫌棄時，需想想，自己可曾付出過什麼。 種植、滋養、孕育，日後方有果。 天生福報多的，有自然給予。 天生福報較少的，那就自己種植，自己耕耘、培育、滋養。 而我今天的「滋養孕育」牌與這週的「改變」主題牌是如何串聯在一起的。 我想，很大的可能性是，我從〝改變〞為基本調去思考”滋養與孕育”。 我太過重情，對於失落、失去，心裡總會有想要強留的勉強，常把自己搞得心糟糟，淚淌不停。 這幾個禮拜我一直持續不斷學習〝道別〞，學習接受道別後的空虛，學習接受道別後，就真的是翻篇與想念。 我也從心裡調整。 道別，讓對方放心啟程離去。 道別，讓自己的心安住安定。 Alyson's 4/06 Tarot: Nurturing Question: My theme for the future diary on 4/05 Card drawn: Nurturing The first thought upon waking naturally this morning was, "What day is it today? What time is it?" The second thought was, "Do I have anything to do today?" My life no longer distinguishes between weekdays and weekends. Unless there are specific arrangements, each day feels like a replica, with little difference. As for today's "future diary," to be honest, I have no clue. Time spent at home usually involves nothing special. How do I write today's diary entry in the past tense without actively seeking activities? Without proactive engagement, one tends to drift. I hesitate. In the afternoon, a friend in a group chat expressed a desire to do tarot readings. Wow! Did my wish from last night come true? Last night, I pondered that if tarot readings could kick off, perhaps there's a chance to kickstart my career in this area. Although I'm not proactive at all and have no plans for when, how, or where to start my own business. For the past few months, it's just been lip service, drawing tarot cards every day, reading tarot cards, designing mood cards, and writing about readings and related ideas. Sometimes when we're stuck and don't know how to break the deadlock, we hope for an external force to make an impact. It's best to pull towards positive forces from the past, so the magnetic field can start to spin. The wheel of opportunity starts turning, and good opportunities come knocking. "Nurturing" is a profound and beautiful concept. Today, planting the seeds of kindness, some will undergo deliberate nurturing or nourishment, while others will naturally flourish without deliberate cultivation. We can't predict when or in what form we will reap the harvest. I always caution myself not to make mistakes, not to wrong others, not to bully others. In times of mental emptiness in the past, I was often ridiculed by many, looked down upon, considered a parasite who only relied on them. In reality, I didn't think much about it. Back then, I thought that because I wasn't good at or didn't understand those things, I shouldn't offer too many opinions or thoughts. Some are willing to lead, some are responsible for assisting, and those who can't help just follow. I never anticipated that the words agreeing to let me follow in the beginning were just talk. My "unopinionated compliance" became a burden to others, but I was unaware at the time. Later, I realized that it was polite language, another aspect I didn't understand. Among friends, whether you like it or not, whether you want to or not, it's okay to speak directly without beating around the bush. And during those years, I didn't have the mental energy or focus to notice. If someone didn't like me, I didn't even know it. Oh, why bother? Since then, I haven't actively nurtured or cultivated this friendship territory. Because I deeply understand that a soil full of glass, stones, gravel, and garbage cannot cultivate anything good. It's not just love that needs adjustment; friendship does too. Human energy is limited. How long is a person's life? At times like these, one must be wise and pour their energy and love into the land that will give back. Just like a farmer, before planting, they evaluate whether the land is fertile and suitable. Of the myriad waters, only a drop is taken. Let your love be unique. Partiality is lovely. If you invest in the wrong heart, quickly cut losses. Don't let a confused soul burden you with reluctance and uncertainty. Better to cry with your head held high than to degrade yourself like dust. Our nurturing. Our cultivation. Our intentions. My love. They're only nourished in mutually committed relationships. There's nothing to regret. There's nothing to resent. Writing to this point, it's clear that it's completely off-topic from the "future diary." But it's directly related to today's tarot card, "Nurturing." Back to the point. If something wonderful happens to me today, it's because of the nurturing and cultivation efforts I've made in the past. In this life, I can afford to be a little more willful at times, perhaps because of the accumulated merits from many lifetimes of cultivation. When we envy, think about what we have sacrificed. When we complain, also think about what we have sacrificed. When we are envied, think again about what we have sacrificed. When we are despised, we need to think about what we have sacrificed. Planting, nurturing, and cultivating lead to fruit in the future. For those naturally blessed, they receive without effort. For those with fewer blessings, they need to plant, cultivate, and nurture themselves. And how does today's "Nurturing" card relate to this week's theme of "Change"? I think there's a high possibility that I've shifted my focus from "Change" to "Nurturing." I'm too emotionally attached, always wanting to cling on to what's lost. This often leaves me feeling miserable, with tears flowing endlessly. For the past few weeks, I've been continuously learning to "say goodbye," to accept the emptiness that comes after farewells, and to truly move on and stop longing. I've also adjusted from the heart. Goodbye, allowing the other person to depart with peace of mind. Goodbye, letting my own heart settle and find peace. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Nurturing

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress 讓我熱淚盈眶，讓我溫暖力量滿胸膛 讓我謙卑跪下，讓我平靜祥和又安康 焚香，仰頭，靜心，凝視 向您呼喚，不敢高喊 您沉默，您不理 您低眉看似俯瞰紅塵，也許看人們的前世今生 只要您在哪，那兒就是我的家，我歸屬的地方 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145031173 生日快樂！觀世音菩薩 觀世音菩薩的聖誕日，我前往林口竹林山觀音寺幫觀音菩薩慶生，祝賀她的生日。 乾媽 ~ 我是神明的孩子 小時候非常羨慕哥哥和弟弟都有乾媽，我卻沒有。 曾問過媽媽，為何我沒有。 爸媽說，因為我小時候非常愛哭，又愛跟弟弟吵架，沒有大人喜歡我，沒有人想當我的乾爸或乾媽。 我在夜裡哭泣。 我覺得我很棒的呀！ 我太小了，不管是哭泣，或是因太愛哭被媽媽抱在懷裡睡覺的記憶。 羨慕現在的孩子，父母將他們成長，紀錄在相機裡，電腦裡，還有影片裡。 最後，觀世音菩薩成為了我的乾媽。 在我們的文化裡，許多與神明有緣分的孩子，會認神明做乾爸或乾媽。 我們是神明的孩子。 慶生 那天，我比原先預期的晚半個小時起床。 以前長輩和朋友們的睡眠是隨著年齡增長而遞減，我連這點都與眾不同，現在年紀多了，睡眠時間更長了。 沒有睡飽，無法清醒，頭會痛。 所以即使神識有點舒醒，但眼睛張不開，腦子無法運轉時，我就會繼續貪睡一下。 準備了水果，擺放在好看的竹籃裡，到時候就提著進廟裡，直接放在供桌就可以。 記得家裡在這樣的日子，媽媽會事先去買紅龜粿或壽桃這類中式糕點給神明慶生。 我想著自己愛吃的是蛋糕，於是就準備蛋糕。 直覺力 晚起，當天所有的時間都需往後延。 賴床時，腦海中曾閃過一個思緒，非常短暫，快得沒能抓住那訊息。 直到進入蛋糕店，聽著店家跟排在我前面的那位客人說，小型蛋糕已售完的話語，這時，早上沒能抓到的訊息，馬上連結到腦海，並清晰有了畫面與現在眼前發生的場景一樣。 我的直覺力慢慢得回來了，經過我散漫了六、七百天後，感動。 是觀世音菩薩和眾神明的庇佑。 祈禱與祝賀 取了六根香，在廟的右邊側門裡面有點香檯。 高舉點燃的香，然後從右邊側門走出。 走至天空爐前，頂禮，祈禱念詞，三拜。 將三根香插入廟大門正前方的香爐裡。 後退，頂禮，三拜。 從廟的左邊側門進入廟宇裡。 站在中心排，面向前方的神明佛像。 頂禮，祈禱念詞，三拜。 將手上還有的三根香插入前方香爐裡。 後退，雙掌合起，三拜。 從十幾年前，我前來廟宇，除了特別的三次以外，皆無任何的祈求。 第一次是請求指引工作選擇。 第二次是爸爸住院病危通知。 第三次是拜託照護奶奶爸媽。 今日目的是慶生，當然就是祝福生日快樂，然後國家安康。 小幸運，也是小福報 停車位 當我車子快接近廟宇附近的停車場時，前方塞車了。 將車子右轉，打算繞一圈，到後面馬路的停車格。 轉了一圈後，注意到原塞車的路口已無車，那就試試看，也許有比較近的停車位。 過了紅綠燈，馬上，右前方就有個停車格，還是最後一個。 就這樣輕易且順利將車停好。 供品位 進入廟宇，非常多人，供桌上滿滿的供品。 尋思要找空位擺放水果和蛋糕，走到白虎邊的第二排桌子，剛好看到有香客在收他們的供品。 超級幸運的呀！ 請他們慢慢來，我可以等一下時間的，沒關係的。 在這樣神聖的日子，許多人都面帶微笑與欣喜心前來。 我的竹籃和蛋糕盒，都是方型且盒子狀，可以疊起來擺放。 在這樣隆重日子，神明不會跟信徒、香客計較東西擺放是否有端正。 結緣品 第一次注意廟裡的活動情況，以前總是只有拜拜，沒有留意其他。 廟宇中間，出家師父們帶領信眾唱誦佛經。 正想往那裏靠近，突然聽到物品撒落的聲音，我趕緊前往協助撿拾。 以為是某信眾的供品，撿起來後才知道是中間師父們丟出來要送給有緣粉的信眾們的糖果。 我很幸運，撿到了兩顆。 在我不懂的情況下，不同的糖果繼續發送。 站在第一線的一位姐姐，突然轉身，將她手指攤開說，歡迎結緣，分享她掌中的糖果。 我拿了她的糖果，並用我撿到的另一種，送給這位姐姐，祝福她。 糖果繼續分送著。 我覺我有拿到兩種，已是非常幸運的事情，不須每一種都要拿到，更不須要拿到很多。 有好多人受到觀世音菩薩的協助，發送著還願品，跟大眾結善緣。 還有大悲咒水，經過觀世音菩薩的加持，回家加入飲用水，從身體內部，每一細胞都有著佛經的保護。 祈禱位 觀音菩薩聖誕日，廟宇的委員會請了師父前來唱誦佛經。 關於佛經，對我們來說很有距離，裡頭全是看不懂的梵文意思。 就如同基督教有讀聖經班，佛經也有讀經班，讓想要了解的人有機會可以研讀。 外圍發放著糖果餅乾，中間的唱誦佛經持續著，我站在一旁跟著頂禮，膜拜。 隨著師父唱誦的聲調，我的身體很輕鬆得輕微舞動。 那是讓我很沉浸的音律。 看到一位長輩也想頂禮膜拜，我側了身，讓她可以更為靠近一些。 我想，這也是一種志同道合吧。 在這樣近的距離，我與觀世音菩薩金身在同一個小空間裡，隨著唱誦聲音的流淌，我的心思只有佛經，只有當下。我的心中，溫柔燦燦。 回家 ~ 溫暖的溫柔 儀式告一段落。 觀世音菩薩的金身需要回到大殿之中。 這是第一次看到竹林山觀音寺觀世音菩薩的金身。 小小的，黑黑的，應是被長年鼎盛香火燻的。 原本想拿起手機拍攝或錄影。 在發現菩薩金身應該會經過身邊時，我一心只想好好看看菩薩，只想感受當下。 菩薩金身被人抱著朝我邊前進，我用右手跟觀音菩薩金身打招呼，輕聲對她說，『觀音菩薩，生日快樂。』 在菩薩金身從我眼前經過時，我瞬間熱淚盈眶，站在原地久久無法移身。 像是被光溫暖包裹著，擁抱著。 我像是被乾媽抱在懷中，她溫柔的撫慰我。 我在心中對觀世音菩薩說，我回來了。乾媽。 咖啡味 竹林寺大門旁的停車場邊邊開了一家小小咖啡廳。 一位年輕男孩的創業，裡面位置不多，也沒有洗手間。 我喜歡這地方的可愛，和老闆的親切。 詢問了併桌，獲得對方親和的回應。 老闆還記得我，我們聊了農曆春節他與廟宇如此近的距離，他的所見，所聞，所感，所想。 有時我們都需要像是朋友，可互相聊聊的人。 不熟悉但認識，這樣的淡淡，很好。 後記 離開了廟宇，將蛋糕分享給哥哥嫂嫂，分享給社區守衛和打掃大姊。 吃觀世音菩薩加持過的蛋糕，大家都平安，都沾染到溫暖的光。 回到自己的家中，想將慶生寫下紀錄，也想知道當觀世音菩薩經過我身旁時，她跟我說了什麼，讓我的高靈感動到情緒無法控制，即使過了一些時間，跟哥哥分享時，依然是想流淚，依然馬上紅眼眶。 塔羅抽到了『皇后Empress』。 我又哭了。 是媽媽。 張開雙手，等著我撲上前，抱著我。 是媽媽。 滋養孕育，等著我撲上前，餵飽我。 是媽媽。 溫暖守候，等著我撲上前，撫慰我。 是媽媽。 安慰支持，等著我撲上前，誇獎我。 是媽媽。 林口竹林山觀音寺： https://www.zlskyt.com.tw/ 紅龜粿： https://zh.wikipedia.org/zh-tw/%E7%B4%85%E9%BE%9C%E7%B2%BF 壽桃： https://www.klintainan.com/Goods/92 Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot: Empress Let my eyes brim with tears, let warm strength fill my chest, Let me kneel in humility, let me be serene, peaceful, and healthy, Burning incense, looking up, quieting my mind, gazing, Calling out to you, not daring to shout, You remain silent, you don't respond, With lowered brows, seemingly overlooking the mortal world, perhaps seeing people's past lives and present, As long as you are there, that's my home, the place I belong. Happy Birthday! Guanyin Bodhisattva On the birthday of Guanyin Bodhisattva, I went to the Guanyin Temple in Linkou Zhulin Mountain to celebrate her birthday and offer my congratulations. Godmother ~ I Am a Child of the Deities When I was young, I envied my brothers for having godmothers while I didn't. I once asked my mother why. My parents said it was because I used to cry a lot and argue with my younger brother, and no adults liked me or wanted to be my godparents. I cried myself to sleep at night. I thought I was great! I was too young to remember whether it was crying or being cuddled to sleep by my mother because I cried too much. I envied today's children, whose parents record their growth in cameras, computers, and videos. Finally, Guanyin Bodhisattva became my godmother. In our culture, many children who are destined to have connections with deities recognize them as godparents. We are children of the deities. Celebration That day, I woke up half an hour later than I originally planned. In the past, the sleep of elders and friends decreased with age, but I was different. As I grew older, I slept longer. Without enough sleep, I couldn't stay awake, and my head would ache. So even if my consciousness was somewhat awake, if I couldn't open my eyes or my brain couldn't function, I would continue to indulge in sleep. I prepared fruits and arranged them in a beautiful bamboo basket to take them into the temple and place them directly on the altar when the time came. I remember that on such days, my mother would buy traditional Chinese pastries like red turtle cakes or longevity peaches to celebrate the deities' birthdays. Since I loved cakes, I decided to prepare a cake. Intuition Waking up late meant that everything for the day would be delayed. While lying in bed, a fleeting thought crossed my mind, so brief that I couldn't grasp the message. It wasn't until I entered the cake shop and heard the shopkeeper telling the customer in front of me that the small cakes were sold out that the morning's missed message instantly connected in my mind, vividly matching the scene happening before me. My intuition was slowly returning, which moved me after my absent-mindedness for six or seven hundred days. It was the blessing of Guanyin Bodhisattva and the other deities. Prayer and Blessing I took six incense sticks. Inside the temple's right side door was an incense table. I raised the lit incense and walked out from the right side door. I walked to the sky furnace, paid respects, recited prayers, and bowed three times. Then, I inserted three incense sticks into the incense burner directly in front of the temple door. I stepped back, paid respects, and bowed three times. I entered the temple from the left side door. Standing in the center row facing the deity's statue in front, I paid respects, recited prayers, and bowed three times. Then, I inserted the remaining three incense sticks into the incense burner in front. I stepped back, clasped my hands together, and bowed three times. Since ten years ago, when I came to the temple, except for three special occasions, I had no requests during my visits. The first time was to seek guidance on job choices. The second time was when my father was hospitalized and critically ill. The third time was to ask for care for my grandparents. Today's purpose was to celebrate, of course, to wish for a happy birthday and the well-being of the country. Small Fortunes, Small Blessings Parking Space As my car approached the temple's parking lot, there was traffic ahead. I turned right, planning to go around and park in the parking spaces on the street behind. After making a circle, I noticed that the intersection where there was traffic before was now clear. So, I decided to try my luck and see if there was a closer parking space. After passing the traffic light, there was immediately a parking space on the right side, and it was the last one. So, I easily and smoothly parked my car. Offerings Entering the temple, there were many people, and the offering tables were full. I wondered where to find space to place the fruits and cake. I walked to the second row of tables on the side of the White Tiger and happened to see worshippers collecting their offerings. Super lucky! I asked them to take their time as I could wait. On such a sacred day, many people came with smiles and joy. My bamboo basket and cake box were both square and box-shaped, so they could be stacked and placed. On such an important day, the deities wouldn't mind how neatly offerings were placed by the worshippers and visitors. Bonds It was the first time I paid attention to the activities in the temple. Before, I only prayed without paying attention to anything else. In the middle of the temple, the ordained masters led the worshippers in chanting sutras. Just as I was about to approach them, I suddenly heard the sound of items being scattered. I hurried over to help pick them up, thinking they were offerings from worshippers. Only after picking them up did I realize they were candies thrown by the masters in the middle to be given to worshippers who were destined to receive them. I was very lucky to pick up two. Without understanding why, different candies continued to be distributed. A sister standing in the front suddenly turned around, opened her hand, and welcomed me to share the candies in her palm. I took her candy and gave her the other one I picked up, wishing her well. The candies continued to be distributed. I felt lucky to have picked up two kinds, which was already a very fortunate thing. There was no need to have every kind or to have many. Many people received help from Guanyin Bodhisattva, offering their gratitude and forming good karma with others. There was also the water blessed with the Great Compassion Mantra, which, when consumed at home, protected every cell of the body with the sutras. Prayer Space On the birthday of Guanyin Bodhisattva, the temple committee invited masters to chant sutras. The sutras were distant to us, filled with Sanskrit meanings we couldn't understand. Just as Christianity has Bible study classes, there are also sutra study classes for those who wish to understand. Candies and cookies were distributed on the periphery, while the chanting of sutras continued in the middle. I stood aside, paying respects and worshiping along. With the tones of the master's chanting, my body relaxed slightly, swaying gently. It was a melody that immersed me deeply. Seeing an elder wanting to pay respects, I stepped aside to let her get closer. I thought, this is also a kind of mutual understanding. At such a close distance, I and the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva were in the same small space. Flowing with the chanting, my mind was filled only with the sutras, only with the present moment. My heart was warm and radiant. Going Home ~ Warm Gentleness The ceremony came to a close. The golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva needed to return to the main hall. It was the first time I had seen the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva at the Zhulin Mountain Guanyin Temple. It was small and dark, likely imbued with the incense smoke of many years. I had initially thought of taking out my phone to capture or record it. However, when I realized that the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva would pass by me, I focused solely on observing her, just wanting to feel the present moment. As the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva was carried towards me, I greeted her with my right hand and softly said, "Guanyin Bodhisattva, happy birthday." As the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva passed by me, tears welled up in my eyes instantly, and I stood there unable to move for a long time. It felt like being enveloped in warm light, embraced. It was as if I were being hugged by my godmother, her gentle comfort soothing me. In my heart, I said to Guanyin Bodhisattva, "I'm back, godmother." Coffee Flavor Next to the parking lot by the gate of the Zhulin Temple, there was a small coffee shop. It was started by a young man, with limited seating and no restroom. I liked the quaintness of this place and the friendliness of the owner. I asked to share a table and received a friendly response. The owner remembered me, and we talked about the proximity of the Lunar New Year to the temple, sharing perspectives and experiences. Sometimes, we all need someone to chat with, even if we're not familiar but acquainted. Such light connections are nice. Afterthought Leaving the temple, I shared the cake with my brother, sister-in-law, community guards, and the cleaning lady. Eating the cake blessed by Guanyin Bodhisattva, everyone was safe and bathed in warm light. Back at home, I wanted to write down the celebration and also find out what Guanyin Bodhisattva said to me as she passed by, which moved me to uncontrollable emotions. Even after some time had passed, I still felt like crying when I shared it with my brother, with tears in my eyes. I drew the Tarot card "Empress" again. And I cried. It was my mother. With open arms, waiting for me to rush into them, embracing me. It was my mother. Nurturing and feeding me, waiting for me to come to her. It was my mother. Warmly waiting, ready to comfort me when I rush to her. It was my mother. Offering solace and support, waiting for me to approach, ready to praise me. It was my mother. Zhulin Mountain Guanyin Temple: https://www.zlskyt.com.tw/ Red Turtle Cakes: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_tortoise_cake Longevity Peaches: https://www.klintainan.com/Goods/92 #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Empress

#Tarotcard...搜尋結果

Alyson’s 4/05 Tarot：恐懼 Fear (7-57)

Alyson’s 4/05 Tarot：恐懼 Fear (7-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 4/03 Tarot：豐收 Harvest (5-57)

Alyson’s 4/03 Tarot：豐收 Harvest (5-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/23 Tarot：大師 Master

Alyson’s 4/23 Tarot：大師 Master

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：財富/命運 Fortune (2-57)

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：財富/命運 Fortune (2-57)

2024 0426 今日塔羅：慈悲 Compassion

2024 0426 今日塔羅：慈悲 Compassion

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

#Tarotcard...搜尋結果

Alyson’s 4/05 Tarot：恐懼 Fear (7-57)

Alyson’s 4/05 Tarot：恐懼 Fear (7-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 4/03 Tarot：豐收 Harvest (5-57)

Alyson’s 4/03 Tarot：豐收 Harvest (5-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/23 Tarot：大師 Master

Alyson’s 4/23 Tarot：大師 Master

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：財富/命運 Fortune (2-57)

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：財富/命運 Fortune (2-57)

2024 0426 今日塔羅：慈悲 Compassion

2024 0426 今日塔羅：慈悲 Compassion

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)